It's been a long time since I've been here.
A year ago April I went out on medical leave because my meds stopped working. They called me in Aug even before I was released by my doctor to tell me I no longer had a job. Oct my short term disability ran out and I was denied long term because of pre-existing condition. I went on unemployment and am getting some of my meds for free and the others don't cost a ton but enough.
I missed the extention for unemployment by a week so now I have no income what so ever. When i take the two meds that I get from the drug companies, I'm very irritable and can't even stand being with myself so I'm not taking them. My husband is trying to get stuff caught up so no money to buy the others (which i don't think he really cares because he doesn't want me on meds). At least with not being on anything I can count on things not staying the same for very long before there is a change.
I feel horrible both mentally and physically. Now I have no idea how I going to work with no meds. I'm thinking about filing for disability but that's such a long process and who knows how long it could take to get approved. I really don't want to give up trying to work yet but my last 3 jobs I've lost due to bipolar within a couple of years.
I have no clue what to do anymore
"It is not easy to live life sometimes and face the world with a smile when you're crying inside. It takes a lot of courage to reach down inside yourself, hold on to that strength that's still there, and know that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities. But if you can hold on long enough to see this through, you'll come out a new person - stonger, with more understanding and with new pride in yourself from knowing you made it" Kathy Obara