When i get depressed i have to use antidepresants, its the only way to keep me alive i get so dark. Thankfully they pass after a little while and i get back to my manic self. It's allways worse for me at night, for what ever reason.
Glad you feel better. I cant understand being raped, however i can understand surviving a sucide attempt. However i try to think of it in a positive light, there is a reason i am still here. And so i try to make myself a good friend, father, husband, and good samaritan each and every day i can. I figure i owe a life and i have to work hard to reearn mine.
Abilify helped me a bit, respirdal helped ALOT. LOL LOL LOL However once i got my mania under control i revealed a depression lurking beneath the surface that was deadly. My PDOC feels my many mania days helped me keep the depression under control, at the expense of having sex with everything in sight.
So i keep a supply of celexa on hand for when i feel a depression coming on. Then i take it for about a month to a month and a half to get over it. THen i go off of it and see if i am ok.
Of course there are side effects to everything, but in the end they are much easier to handle than going back to cheating, lieing, stealing, and the rages i used to have. Giving up 15 pounds and some hair is a cheap price to pay, all in all.