So, I've been off work this week on vacation. It's been really good for the most part. I am still trying to work up to 400 mg of Lamictal and as of today I got to 200 mg. It's taken a whole week to get there, so I have a couple more weeks to go.
I am feeling it definitely. I have managed to have fun and relax this week. Today however, I feel depressed and fatigued. I am going to try and get outside today, it's another beauty sunshiny day. I am going to try and read my book, although with how tired I feel, I worry that will put me to sleep!
We got out of our city and travelled a few hours to another to go to an amusement park. We rode roller coasters, spent the afternoon in the waterpark (loved the lazy river!!) and then went back to a great hotel and enjoyed our jacuzzi suite! We really enjoyed it!! LOL It was really great to get away together; I felt close to him. Now that we are back home, things have returned to normal. I miss that passionate feeling.
Unfortunately I am starting to think about going back to work on Tuesday (it's a long weekend here in Canada, so I have Monday off as well). I was just having the hardest time waking up to go to work in the mornings. I have been sleeping in all week and I worry about having to get up again.
I haven't been mood charting in over 4 weeks. And I haven't written in my journal for two months.
Things have become tense between my Mom and me. Long story there...
So I guess today, I just wanted to come on here and vent a little b/c I am feeling out of sorts today. I think it's going to be a long day....and I am feeling like I could spend all of it in bed..... :(
Anyway, I'll be around today I think.
I hope you are all treating yourselves well today,
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed for panic attacks
---temporarily off Lamictal----