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tortoise11
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   Posted 8/11/2010 5:57 AM (GMT -7)   
He usually pecks me on the cheek when he leaves for work.  But this morning he says to me, "This isn't some sort of manic episode, is it?"  I replied, "I don't know.  Really - I don't know."  I had to think about it.
 
I'm still in the range of hypomania.  Managing 6 hours of sleep.  O.M.G.  SEX!!  nono   Asking my fiance if he was interested in a 3-some. eyes   smilewinkgrin   Flirting up some guy on FB.  (Whoops!) Rocking a city council meeting - I can totally do contemporaneous public speaking sometimes!  Butchered some of my rabbits  (Yum!)  Cleaning to house like crazy.  And tried to get sex when he left for work this morning.  nono
 
For now, I can just enjoy it.  When/if I get down to sleeping 4 hrs or less, then I'll do something.  But these things usually only last a day or two, so not too much I can screw up, right?  tongue
 
My point in posting is that he must have retained something from the "Loving Someone With Bipolar Disorder" book and he was a reality check I needed this morning.
Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."

GreenTeaHero
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   Posted 8/11/2010 3:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Thats great tortoise. reality check can be so so useful...
stay safe oK ??

tortoise11
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   Posted 8/11/2010 3:56 PM (GMT -7)   

Yeah...  I already crashed.  eyes    Not too beadly though.  Meds must be working.  :-)    I'm OK.

 

It sure was nice to get a reality check!  I think I mentioned that I gave my service dog to a friend with similar disabilities.  And I have a new dog - but she isn't trained for any of that stuff so she's pretty useless.  tongue   As you guys know from my posts, I have NO CLUE when I'm going into episodes.  My judgement and perception of reality gets so messed up.


Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."

tortoise11
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   Posted 8/12/2010 7:53 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm sort of messed up. I don't really know what is going on with me. Just really easy to trigger a mood or something. My poor fiance. :( I disappeared outside yesterday and he finally came outside to find me for a late dinner (8 p.m.!), I ate about 3 bites. I was really cold and put on a heavy sweatshirt (it's 80+ inside, with the a/c on!). Then I went to bed. He must have been upset because he didn't come to bed until 2 a.m. (and he is almost always asleep by 10 p.m.!) I was waking up about 1:30 a.m. and was back in a normal mood. I really wanted to get up and get on with life, but that would have made everything worse.

I'm OK this morning. Confused. Nervous.

But I remembered my meds today!
Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."

tortoise11
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   Posted 8/12/2010 2:53 PM (GMT 0)   
I have a pdoc appointment next Wednesday. :S
Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."

tortoise11
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   Posted 8/12/2010 8:51 PM (GMT -7)   
I am (at least temporarily) out of the ultraradian cycling that has consumed my last 2 days. Putting a strain on my relationship. I am so bloody ANGRY tonight that some freaking random disease is slowly ruining my life.

So much for acceptance. :(
Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."

tortoise11
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   Posted 8/13/2010 7:32 AM (GMT -7)   

ultraradian.  Like 2 - 3 complete mood cycles in a day.  :(

I'm messed up enough that I don't have self-control to do the diet.  It has been since June!  :(

But I go to a higher dose of meds today and it is the dose that used to work for me.  So I am hoping that this is going to END soon.

 

Oooo!  And I love the guy all over again.  Yesterday he brought home a newspaper clipping for a NAMI 12-week class for family of someone with a serious mental illness.  Wow.  shocked   I wonder if he will go?  Either way, I thought it was very sweet.  And then I worried that I'm miserable to be around. ...


Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
 
"It's never too late to become what you might have been."
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