Yes, definitely see your Dr. Sounds miserable!
I know what you mean about wanting to be OK without pills. I guess I had to try, realize what it takes and that I can't maintain it. I'm OK with taking Lamictal. Now I get that feeling after I see my pdoc.
I think it's like HBill says - gradually coming to acceptance with the disease.
Is working good for you? Does it help your mood? Do you need time off or a change of schedule. If he's concerned about your health, it might help to have some suggestions. Are you legally disabled and eligible for "reasonable accomodations"?
Or if your digestion problem is the issue, tell him you are having physical health problems NOT related to bp and you are seeing/ have and appointment to see a Dr. about it.
Good luck with your boss!
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