I have to agree with you, my jobs keep me "in the game" so to speak. First there is the financial reward, life and BP isnt so stressful with money coming in.
Second is the good will and possitive growth a good job and workplace can provide. In the last two years i have found that i have leaned harder and harder on my jobs as my marriage went downhill. Now that i am seperated i am glad i have the jobs to keep me busy.
Third is keeping busy. Alot of my problems with bP also came when i wasnt busy and had idle time to fill. To much idle time lead me down the wrong path more than once.
Good luck tortise, i hope you find something good for you.