After reading your post I thought about a couple of things. First you say that you are gaining weight. I would definately provide that concern to your psychiatrist. I said up front to mine that I would not take anything that makes you gain weight. And we were able to work around it.
Also I was talking to one of the other girls with lupus and her mother was bipolar. She said that she came to a real understanding when she read and unquiet mind by Kay Jamison. Kay Jamison is an extrodinary individual that you should definately familiarize yourself with.
I'm not sure, but I'm getting the impression that your boyfriend is not very supportive and understanding. I can't tell you what to do in that situation, but just don't feel trapped in a relationship.
As far as you feeling lonely if you live near Indianapolis I would be your friend.
Otherwise, which you probably don't, there are so many things that I think are important for you to think about. Church's are good at forming relationships, usually towns and cities have park organizations that you can sign up for, there are usually places you can volunteer for that may help you. I think you need to get out and meet people, especially since you just moved.
I have two other books that I think are good. I just posted this in the lupus forum as "my favorite books". The notebood by nicholas sparks and Tuesdays with Morry by Mitch Albom. They are really good if you feel like reading.
I hope things get better for you!
~ With Love ~ Dana, Pharm. D.
~ Diagnosed with Lupus in May of 2004 and Bipolar II in April of 2001.
Disclaimer: On any medical information I provide, please bring your concerns to your physician. I have no financial interests in any drug or drug company. I will try be as objective as possible. If I am giving my opinion I will state it first.