Yes, i'm with you with the few but close group. It seems to be our lot in life to live a more solitary existence.
But there are good people out there who will be your friends, i have found one recently, and i was completely up front with her about my condition. I have been up front with everyone, and yes, it has cost me some relationships. But those that have stayed have become very hard core friends.
And other avenue is pets. My dog thor is one of my best friends. He enjoys hikes, burger king, and most important of all, he is stable in his love for me. Its very important for me to have that kinda stability in my life. Yes he is a dog, but a dog can be so much more than a dog if we let them help us. In a world that seems to be filled with confusion and change, my puppy is a island of happiness, fun and stability.
But dont give up, i have found a few "text" friends who i am very close to. We dont see each other often and talk every now and again, but are very close on text. And let me tell you, having those texts come in during the day really lighten my life and give me alot of hope and happiness. What i like to do is as i travel the day, take pictures of unusual things i see on my hikes, puppy pictures, weird pictures, and send them out with funny captions. This keeps people interested and makes for alot of fun texts. It isnt all BP, BP, BP, all the time. But last week when i had a bad day with a mania, two of my text friends offered to come sit with me. That really made me feel good.
Plus you have us here.
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"It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself." Happy Bill
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