I am going thru a rough patch and hope to get some help in
this section. I have multiple health condition that causes a great deal of
physical pain. But it has taken a toll on me mentally. I was self – medicating with
my pain pills. I was a nurse until a year ago my bipolar primarily put a halt
to that. I receive SSDI now. I was stable with my bipolar for almost a year. However
, due to the fact that I was self-medicating I ran out of the pain pills. Early
on I told the pain clinic that I was not getting any relief from that does and
felt I needed more. SO I out of pain meds , they tell me if the pain is so bad
go to your local ER/ I go there Thursday and was rejected for pain medication,.
All I got was a hand shake from the doctor and he hinted that Ii was maybe
addicted to my pain medication. So I was
so upset I went home and this enormous feeling came over me of feeling empty
and wanted not to live like this anymore. I creid so much, then I finally
called my husband who reminded me that I
have reasons to live and that I had a 10 a.m. appointment with my psychiatrist.
I still was weepy but the psychiatrist
wanted to admit me but ai promised I would be safe and that ai would have someone
with me at all time until the meds start working. He increased my Effexor XR
and my Geodon.- the afternoon does to 40 mg from the 20 mg dose. But I never felt this bad before where I did
not want to live like this anymore – with the pain and being depressed. I did
not make my year of stability but I sure had a good time during that year.