Dana is right - trust me, you don't want to go there. You will be on the floor in nothing flat and it will mess up your mood for days. It is a DEPRESSANT, not an antidepressant. It feels good the first few hours, but when it wears off, you will be very low and probably for several days. One episode of drinking can trigger a bad depression that lasts for weeks or months. I guess you may have to find that out for yourself.
I agree, your reference to drinking because college is hard is a concern. Don't start using excuses for drinking, don't use it as a crutch. You will be very sick very soon. If you can't deal, get therapy or tell your doc - he may want to adjust your meds.
No problem, Kitty - I really had a feeling you just made a typo!!
I am speaking from experience as well - it started out as just socially, then just a glass or two of wine after work, then, realized I felt really bad the next day, but another glass of wine made it feel better. And so it went, until was drinking a litre and a half of straight vodka a day. Blacking out, lost two years of my life. I finally went to detox (incredibly depressed too, duh) and that was 3 years ago, and I haven't had a drop since. I am not even tempted. when I think back to how bad I felt and looked, totally worthless for anything, it makes me shudder. I cannot believe I let that happen, but it really sneaks up on you. That's why I am so passionate about BPs drinking, with or without meds.
I hope you didn't think I was being harsh on you - that was not my intention, just wanted that girl to get the idea, that's all!
I know it's hard - if I didn't have the support of my wonderful and patient husband, I would probably still be drinking. He gave me the ol' ultimatum and that woke me up double quick!
Do you find the day after you had a drink or two, that you don't feel good?
I must agree with the ladies. Socially, it was very hard to begin telling all my friends that I could or did not want to indulge in drinking anymore. Everyone always wants to push it on you, it is difficult to say no, but you must. I made the mistake of drinking on a holiday , and it took me WEEKS to get back to normal. I was very depressed, and before that actually felt quite good. All of my progress was lost and my p doc said to me "that was really stupid". Those words stung at the time, but he was right. If you are having a hard time with friends, I recommend drinking from a glass that is colored so they can't tell what you are drinking, or just tell them you are drinking something when you are not. But I must say, that is a game that may get tired, and your TRUE friends will respect your decision. Ultimately you may find your social circle changing as you change-don't be scared. And if you are having urges to drink, seek help from your p doc. Mine was very helpful when I expressed these urges to drink and we worked out a solution. Hang in there, and take the advice of these ladies-they speak the truth!!!