Thanks girls for all your thoughts!
The day after I wrote that email I literally felt fine, like the complete opposite of how I felt that night. I have felt fine ever since, not hypomanic, not depressed,but "normal". I increased my Mirapex that night, and it hasn't agitated me, so I will leave it as is with the increase. I actually was on that dose before but tapered down due to agitation. I am on 300 mg Seroquel which stuns me so I take it at bedtime only-it ensures I get the sleep I need and stay out of any manic episodes . During the day I do not feel doped up, unless I am increasing my Lithium, which is 900 mg right now. Something's not right,b/c I am swinging-I get the results of my Lithium level next week-before it was only 0.2-NOT ENOUGH! As a note, my moods swung with no change in meds.He has suggested increasing the seroquel if I go up again, but I hate doing it b/c of the akasthisia(which means more clonazapem)! He gave me clonazapem which works well to quell acute mania, however, addiction is the last thing I need so I am leary to take it too often, as well as it works. I think like you said psychnurse, I need to nip the hypomania in the bud so I don't fall as hard.
Kittycat, I know what you mean about the weight, and yes, as a diabetic it si particularly concerning. You need to find the right one for you, and there are ones out there that do not cause weight gain, or less so anyhow. I gained 20 pds on zyprexa, and on Lithium I have actually stayed pretty level with diet and exercise, two things we need to be doing anyhow to make ourselves feel better on top of our drugs.I asked myself what normal was a few weeks ago, I think I know now-you just do.
My thoughts are with you as well Ria-I think we're all hanging on to the hope that this will get better, I believe it will, especially with good supports!!
take care all, talk to ya soon