Nickie, you are such a doll. Thank you for that; it really means a lot coming from another bipolar person. Not that you are only that, but you do understand and are in the same place sometimes. Thank you so much.
I am so sorry about your friends death. Do you want to talk about it?
I know exactly how you feel, bad, mad, sad, not glad, haha, couldn't resist. I have been there my whole life, probably just like you! Mostly mad, not usually sad, and always bad, haha! The workout thing is great for taking out aggression; I don't feel agression today, just tired and I was really, really sad earlier. I called my mom and she was so helpful. She has learned over the years not to say "just think about all you have to be thankful for", or "think positive" ooooooh I hate that one, haha!
She told me even tho I don't work anymore, I am not worthless, because I take such good care of Paul and give him a haven to come home to (when I'm ok, which is most of the time). That really helped, because you know when you're really down you don't see ANY redeeming qualities in yourself.
I'm not crying anymore, now I am just sooooooo tired. Sometimes, it's good that I am an ultra rapid cycler, at least in this case.
You may be preaching to the choir, but it's sooo appreciated! It really meant a lot to me, thank you so much.
Really, if you want to talk about your friend, just email me or post here. I'm so sorry about that.
Don't apologize! That is a really devastating one, losing a friend or loved one. Just know that we are all here for you, if you decide you do want to talk, or just write about it. My thoughts are with you.
Sounds like the funk is going around I hope it leaves you soon. I'm sorry you were "testy" with your hubby. I do that to Joe sometimes. Whatever he does ends up being wrong and there's no way he can talk himself out of it. And then I feel bad afterwards. Joe's still learning to be patient, but I think he's on his way.
I have to say I often hate myself. And that's really an awful way to feel. I hope the funk leaves soon it can be aweful
*Dana tries to balance spoons on her nose standing on one leg to make shannon laugh. But fails miserably and ends up on the floor*
I'm glad mom was to the rescue today!!!! and hope you feel better soon.
I hope you feel better soon. I follow your post a lot. You are the most understanding and caring person I have seen in a long time. You make my job easy on this message board.
Just wanted you to know I hope you feel better soon.
Hi, I just wanted to thank all of you for writing in, it meant a lot to me!
I'm hoping I can get some sleep tonight, I know if I can, I will feel better tomorrow!
Dana, I hope you didn't hurt yourself in your fall, hehe
Laura, that was so nice of you. I hope I can help whenever I can, too! Good night,
The only time I can work out (I do it at home, DVDs, hate being around other people I don't know) is when I am stable or of course manic.
It's really hard to get started, the best way is to cut the junk and bad carbs out, and eat the good ones an hour before you do, you will have "good" , usable energy. The key is to start at ONLY the level you feel comfortable wtih. If you knock yourself out, you won't stick with it. Just do what you can, your stamina will increase quickly, then you will HAVE the energy. It also lifts depression immensely. Of course, you would NEVER go off meds!
If you want more help with the sensible diet (NO fad diets), and starting exercise suggestion, feel free to ask.
Hope everybody is doing well today, I am feeling much better, I got 8 hours of sleep last night, cause I knocked my ass in the dirt with more Seroquel, haha!
Thanks, FOD, I'm sorry I didn't reply, somehow I didn't get notified that you responded. That meant so much to me, thank you. I think we are all amazing for surving this illness and we're just really loving, good people at heart. I'm so glad when I can help, it truly makes my day. It's kind of like when I worked, I loved the patients (well, most of them, lol), so I can do that again here, I just don't get paid, haha!
Well, a couple of days ago I was doing a painting, and I got so involved, I didn't realize I had been standing there for 3 hours! So it woke me up at about 3:30 a.m. and it hurt so bad I couldn't lie in bed, so I had to get up and so I got about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. I was totalled yesterday, living on Vicodin and muscle relaxers. Not any better today! So, I can't work out, or do house work, I am couchbound, lol. I didn't get much better sleep last night, and the pain is the same, so the mood is going down the toilet. God, what a screwed up week it's been! I sincerely hope the w/e is a little better!!!!!!! Oh, God, why, why!
Oh, I just thought of something - does anybody else have trouble with the notification system? Sometimes when I do get an email, the new response isn't there. I even try going to the thread manually instead of the email link, but it's not there. So frustrating! Is it just me, or you guys, too? Am I doing something wrong?
Talk to you later, take care