I started taking Topamax at 25mg once a day and now I'm up to 50mg two times a day with more to come. So far I have been told there has been a change in my moods (more stable) although I do have to be honest, I still do have some of the same old feelings just not as often. Side effects so far include tingling in feet and hands, spelling has a tendency to go out the window if I don't concentrate (I should have left this with the errors in it) and my appetite has been reduced to 1/8 of what it was which is why people lose weight. I am still in the trial and error stage of this and the doctor feels I have more than just BP so I don't know if that plays a role in how it affects me or not.
Thank you all fro your thoughts and experinces. Kitty, yes, guilty, weight loss is my main motivator. I think in reality I must work harder, eat even better, and then start muckin' about my meds. Bp comes first right? I look at all the combinations everyone is on and it blows my mind how many c=varaitions there are!
Clealry me-I am on 600mg Seroquel (800 if that doesn't work), 0.25mg mirapex ands 900mg Lithium, and clonazapem as needed.Curently, I am not stable, but have been. Oh well, welcome to BP!!!
Thanks guys, lets chat again soon!S
I know how you feel! Sometimes, you know I'm blunt, how can you forget, I think people hate me, too, I can be kinda brusque. But, on the other hand, people love me, too, because I can be oh, so charming. (If in a decent mood, lol). It's genuine, I really am a nice person, but I think people either love me or hate me! And OH,when I was manic or depressed, I thought the entire world hated me. I had paranoia big time, I would always think if anyone was talking quietly at work, they were talking about me. How self centered is that, LOL.
I still worry about how I came off at any type of gathering, I obsess over every little thing I have said. I guess that's part of the reason I don't like gatherings! I think we're all like that, really. Nobody hates you here, sweetie. You are the most diplomatic BP I know. (Which isn't many, but you are wayyyyy more than me, haha!)
I love my seroquel, it helps me sleep at night and until recently managed my aggression.hypomaina, whatever. Shannon is so right-our brains are constanly changing. I know when I have to boost my dose-then, when I wake up feeling "snowed" or "drugged' I know it is time to bring it back down. Thos BP thing is a science, and not a very predictable one, although seasons, stress, PMS, alcohol seem to worsen my BP, as I am sure it may for others. By the way, I have quit drinking entirely this time, no nips, no denial, clean. That crap is toxic! My p doc wants me on it for at least a year, then we'll see how I can do without it and just the lithium/mirapex combo. Oh , I hate how expensive it is!
Hi, clearly me, I also understand big time about being 40 something and not having any "normal" friends. The fact that we are childless by choice both pretty much eliminates the chance to be social or meet people because everybody has kids and can't relate (neither can we!), plus they can never do anything because they have kids, or they have to bring them along, ugh, and secondly, we don't even have an opportunity to meet anyone. It's just the two of us, 24/7 when he's not at work, but thankfully, we never get sick or bored of each other and treasure every minute. In fact, I don't want any friends cos I want to be with him, haha! My therapist just doesn't get it, she keeps pushing me to "get out there and meet people, I would be so much happier", she doesn't realize I AM happy, very happy and I don't WANT that! I don't even see a therapist anymore, I have nothing to talk about, thank god!
And I also understand about SSDI, I have been on for 2 years now, and have all day every day, but I keep so busy between this board and Female First, working out, plus the housework, shopping and cooking (my hobby) and the occasional painting (pictures, not the house, haha). I'm happy, I don't even turn on the TV all day. My pdoc keeps telling me to go to those meetings, but they are only 1 time a month and are clear across the city and in the middle of it, about a 30-40 min drive, I don't like the city, so I don't go.
Hey, I'm from Kansas, too originally, but have been here for 20 years. I remmber "Kansas friendly", you say hi and smile and wave at everyone. i quit doing that shortly after I got to Dalls, people looked at me like I was crazy, (little did they know, lol) never smiled back. I felt so stupid. What part are you from? I'm from Augusta, right outside of Witchita, rural area. Yep, farm girl, then urban big city girl, now suburbia (the best!).
Oh, and call me Shannon!
Wow, Lawrence is near Augusta, have been there (when I was real little, we had some family there).
Soudns like you have been around! San Diego sounds so nice; Paul has a brother there a dentist, so he can afford it, lol!
I would LOVE to live there, it's so much more liberal. No offense to anyone here, but I hate living in a bible belt.
Whoa, two BPs married and twice besides. Scary! I am glad for your sake you're divorcing him, abuse should never be tolerateed, no matter the circumstances.
Kansas City is nice, I thnk a good place to live, esp if you like 4 seasons. We have two lol.
I wish you the best of luck with your knee replacement; it will be worth it when it heals. Shannon
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