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clic
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   Posted 8/30/2005 7:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone!
 
So pdoc bumped my seroquel to 700mg, lith to 1200mg and mirapex 0.25. I feel "normal" again, thank goodness. I took 800mg seroquel (as instructed) to see if I could actually sleep thru the whole night (waking up at least once on 700, unusual for me) and had essentialy what I guess I would label a panic attack, won't do that again! Has anyone ever expereinced that after taking seroquel dose? Scared me. Anyhow, better today and seeing pdoc tomorrow for lith levels and to have my fiance present to ask questions, vent, whatever!
 
Anyhow, I am reading all of the posts and am hesitant to reply, too chicken to post replies. I am 30 and the bio clock is screaming, and I feel for Patti and Dana in the sense I understand the desire to have a little one to love. I struggle daily with wondering if I will be able to conceive when we are ready (gawd, like is there ever a perfect time anyhow?!) and if we adopt how to deal with family, etc. Then there is the issue of meds-there are few(none) resources in our area to counsel in this area-where do you begin, so much conflicting info.
 
Anyhow, I am so sorry for the pain everyone here feels, even if I don't always post. Maybe this can help just a smidge-
-have any of you ever read Robin Sharma's works? He wrote the series "the monk who sold his ferrari". I am reading "who wil cry when you die" and it has inspired me to live life again, to the fullest, lots of great inspirational quotes and reminders. When I am down this man just inspires me!! Please give it a read, I hope you will also find it positive and rewarding for the spirit that so often gets stomped by BP and the like.
 
The best  to you all and talk again soon!!
S

Arenace
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   Posted 8/31/2005 6:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you so much for the post. Your words are encouraging.

I had heard of "Who will cry when you die" I will have to look for it.
Sandra
 
"Bipolar brings new meaning to the Ups And Downs Of Life!!"
 
 


 


psychnurse
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   Posted 8/31/2005 11:16 AM (GMT -7)   

hi, Shannon, so glad to see you and that you're feeling better!   I often wonder how you're doing, you have such a severe case, i really feel for you, sweetie.  Are you able to function at work/school?   I think it's a really great idea to take your fiancee with you, I'm glad he will even go!   Was it his idea?   Either way, that's devotion.

I haven't had any type of panic with Seroquel, but I only take 200mg, anything can happen at high doses, and you know we can react totally opposite to meds, than how they are meant to work, lol.

There are lots of articles on the internet (medical/studies) about BPs and having children.    The general consensus is that the benefits of continuing to medicate (depends which med) outweighs the risks to the fetus, but if it were me, I would read, read, read.  And, talk to your pdoc, too.  He might have some other ideas or opinions.

I hope you're feeling better lasts!  

Oh, and I don't understand your being afraid to post!  WTF!?   We love reading your posts!   What do you think, you'll post something that offends somebody and they will hate you?  Everybody is valuable here, don't let the BP paranoia/persecution complex set in, which we all have, lol! 


Danarx
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   Posted 8/31/2005 11:24 AM (GMT -7)   
Very well put Shannon (psych nurse) the "bp paranoia/persecution complex" that's perfect!!!!

And Shannon (nrs2b) Hang in there sweetie. It's really good to hear from you. I will definately have to read some of those books. I'm ALWAYS looking for something good to read!!!!

Love you all!!!
 ~ With Love ~ Dana, Pharm. D.
 
~ Diagnosed with Lupus in May of 2004 and Bipolar II in April of 2001. 
 
Disclaimer:  On any medical information I provide, please bring your concerns to your physician.  I have no financial interests in any drug or drug company.  I will try be as objective as possible.  If I am giving my opinion I will state it first. 


kittycat27
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   Posted 8/31/2005 2:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Shaanon leave it to you to say some long word that i have to really think about. Laughing my a** off. Can I ask a question , of course I can.... What would you of done ( career wise), if you weren't or didn't become a nurse? Or would there be anything else? I only ask , because I often wonder myself, what would I do if not in the medical field.HHmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... let's ponder that. Talk to ya soon, Nickie. P.S. I am not liking school at this moment, but I am calm. scool Yeah whatever who am I kidding? haha

psychnurse
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   Posted 8/31/2005 2:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Yeah, that's a Shannonism.  It just came to me when i was posting, lol.

Ya know, Nick, for me, there is nothing but medicine.  Absolutely nothing.  I've been interested since I was 4 years old, always asking for a "doctor's kit", you know the plastic "bag" with stethoscope, syringe, bandaids, etc. LOL!

I'm more the artsy fartsy mind, not the analytical one.  Well, I'm talking numbers here, we all know abuot the other kind, lol.  Medicine is considered an art, in fact doctors and nurses are often artists of some sort. 

Accounting?  I can't even IMAGINE working with numbers!   I can barely add/subtract, for real I have a calculator at the computer and in my purse at all times! 

Computers?  Pfffft!  don't have the patience for that crap!    They just make me mad mad

Business?  redface redface redface redface .  Naptime.  Numbers, too. eyes

Thought about being a psychologist.  Then thought "hmmmm, listening to people gripe all day.  Like I need to be brought down."  Nope.

Sales?  Oh sure, I could talk a blue streak, just not about whatever I was selling, lol.  I just wanted to chat, enjoyed that, but I didn't want anybody to think I was there to get their money or anything, they might  not like me! confused

Ah, receptionist/administrative asst.  ROFLMFAO!  Couldn't have been more bored, I don't like people telling me what to do, and I don't like being someone's "boy".   And I don't like women.  Oh, and that feeling was always mutual, lol.  (Except you guys, of course!). yeah    I also couldn't do the job anyway, because I pay no attention to detail, I just don't care, it's boring.  I got fired from let's see, 5 of those in a row for not getting along with the others, and making mistakes.  Whatever. eyes

I had a job once in customer service.   Big mistake!  Every single call made my adrenaline go out of control, I just knew all those people were mad at ME because of their problems with whatever.   Of course, being BP I took it all Personally and had, ahem, words with most of them and of course got fired. nono   Again.

Oh, here's a funny story.  When I was 18, I was in training to be an asst. mgr for Musicland.  I loved music with a passion, so it was perfect.  Well, when I would be closing up at night, alone, sometimes I would get the "five finger discount" of some new tapes, and just "adjust" the inventory sheet.  So, one day we got free tickets to a Ted Nugent concert.  Me and the other asst mgr went.  We were friends, he was really cool.   Well, at the concert I got pretty wasted and the "truth serum" started working, and I was compelled to tell him I had been stealing.  He had to tell the mgr, because they did random lie detector tests about things like that and he didn't want to get canned for not telling, which I understood.  So, guess what?  I got fired!  Dontcha just love that reckless behaviour part?  so much fun!   Well, seemed like a good idea at the time.........

So, when I finally got my head out of my a** at age 26, I got an education in medicine and did stellar, above and beyond good, as we can do when interested, lol.

So, to answer your question, nothing else besides medicine for me.  Only problem was I had to go to school, uggh!

 


kittycat27
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   Posted 9/1/2005 11:24 AM (GMT -7)   
Ahhh.. good ole sales. Hm makes me recall a time when I yelled at someone and they asked for the manager , I said you are looking at the boss. They about fell over. I anted to rip peoples heads off, due the their ignorance or stupidity. I thought I had no common sense yeah f*** right. Administration are ya kiddin, I cannot stand to be told what to do . I remember too when in school , my teacher wanted me to dissect something, ( sheeps brain ), I think . I was in seventh grade yeah right, I told her to kiss my a***. She sent me to the principals office, ohhhh I was scared( yeah ok). She said she was going to call my parents, I said go ahead. I remember her telling my dad to come and get me , he goes what for if you don't want her there, then she can walk home. My punishment was raking my yard, and I had to apologize to the teacher. My dad figured I probably heard it from him.lol Then I got into high school you couldn't get me away from dissecting, loved it. I have dreams of doing a human cadaver all the time, my mom says I am sick. So I ask in what way?! I know this, if the schooling wasn't so long I would do anesthiology . I love that stuff, but I would have a s**** load of loans, and it just takes to long. I was meant to do what i am doing.... THat's surgery. This is the most amazing stuff that I could ever see. Oh just thought of something, If there were no way I could be in the medical field, I think I would of been a dancer. Not stripping! Like a dancer, ever seen dirty dancing. The last dance of the movie, that's all me. I really like to dance. I took 7 yrs of Jazz dancing and loved it. Then i got into sports so I had to pick . Anyways, boy am I talkitive today. Schools out till Tuesday , maybe that's why. It's a freakin holiday. Bye for now.

psychnurse
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   Posted 9/1/2005 12:28 PM (GMT -7)   

LOL!  Girl, you're a trip. 

I told my biology teacher I wasn't gonna dissect a pig fetus when I was in jr high, and I took an F for it.  I love animals toooooo much!   But, like you, I always wanted to dissect a cadaver!  Cool!  However, um, I didn't dream of it, you're sick!

I knew you could relate to the ahem, "other jobs" we had to endure before getting out of school, lol!  Well, at least they were all short lived.   I know what you mean about slow stupid lazy people.  God!   That drove me f****** nuts!  Like I needed help!!!!!

Jail, huh?  And I thought you were this "semi" good girl, considering.  That sounds more like it! yeah


clic
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Date Joined Apr 2005
Total Posts : 114
   Posted 9/1/2005 1:17 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey guys

Thanks for your kind words, yet again. Shannon, you are right, the paranoia can be troubling!!!

Sandra, that book has brought me out of a slump I have been in for years. Although I know I need meds and counselling forever,  also know that I need hope, and his type of spiritualism brings me that hope and I thrive on it. -Especially when bad days prevail (or seem to). I read your one post, sounds like you could use some hope and support yourself...hang in there!!!

Shannon-You know when you called my case severe I thought "me???!!"No, it is not that bad. Then yesterday the pdoc dx me as bipolar I instead of NOS and told hubby that I have been in the severe-moderate category-huh??!! All the talk of mania, I am thinkin, no hypomania silly! Dude, you/ve got it all wrong! I thought, what the hell is he talking about, it is not that bad. But then I put all of that together and the fact that I am swimming in lith and seroquel and feeling fine made me think-oh crap, I am a little messed up. It was weird to hear pdoc talk about me to hubby with me loooking on. Perspective. I have always been able to work and play no problem, same with school. However, in my job the stress was minimal-when I am in school I am scared a lot of the time and that makes the BP worse, I have only missed 3 days in 5 yrs of study. However, by the time I got home I was a complete psycho and now the relationship is scarred b/c of it. That's actually what took me in to see doc-extreme rage outbursts, not the "fun" mania I had as a teen/early 20's.

Kitty, too bad your classmates are like that. My one class is like going to a reunion-everyone I started first yr with are back in the same classes again, it's kinda fun. Your right about the neg energy, toxic! They have some lessons to learn about life I bet, in the meantime they can fumble around and figure it out (or not!!!) Plus, are they a lot younger? Sometimes it is a maturity thing (and then not!).

Anyhow, I have to go do some readings (first day of school, blah). Take care all!

S


kittycat27
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Date Joined May 2005
Total Posts : 438
   Posted 9/1/2005 4:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Shannon 2, ahhhh... back in classes too eh? Yeah it sucks. I am pretty hyper at the moment , so excuse me now for any typo's. Yeah some of the girls are younger , one is like 21, and the others are actually older. They think since they have worked in the field for awhile, that thye f****no everything. Well if so then why don't they just graduate the first semester. HA Whatever. Anyways, I hope school is okay. i have been in for two weeks, so far not so bad. BUT, that isn't to say it won't be hectic in the near future. Oh i can't wait. anyways, if I wasn't so hyper I would try some yoga or pilates, but I am wayyyyyyyyyy to hyper for that calming effect. It would do me some good though. So anyways, I realized on my own good will that I need to stop my depo, it's messing me up. Ha Gotcha Shannon 1. It's really doesn't pertain to anything here , just thought I would get a rise outta Shannon 1. Lol Seriously Shannon, don't forget when you are gettin stressed or anything else, post. It is soothing to the soul. Ah that sounded so sweet, whatever I make no sense. Talk to ya soon. scool
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