I'm right there with you sister! And I don't mean to make light of your situation, but it makes it a little easier to think that there are at least two BP people on the planet struggling to keep the clumsies at bay and minimize the calamities.
Same things happen everytime I make any medicine adjustment or inadvertantly take cold medication and not remember to be extra careful. Its worse when I'm handling hot liquids - like soup - I spilled it ever-y-where yesterday at work on my lunch break and then the other day I was trying to dish up supper and ended up upsetting one dish trying to save another I had knocked askew.
I've just decided that its par for the course and figured there isn't much can be done about it - but maybe someone's got some more useful suggestions ;)
OMG Ellie, that part about Subway made me laugh-I could picture your casserole in the oven, and see myself thinkin that yeah, it is eat out night tonight, lol! My meds make me clumsy and actually quite weak-I'm not sure which ones you are on. I find when I slow down and do things with more intention (like concentrate on it harder or something),or more purposeful I have less accidents-who knows!! How are you today otherwise?
Oh, Ellie. I run around with so many bruises on my legs I look like I'm abused. Got a new big black and purple one on the front of my thihg yesterday. I have NO idea where any of them came from!
If I close my eyes, I will fall down, it's simple. I constantly drop things, that's what really pisses me off!
I've never been a charm schoold student, either but this is ridiculous!
Shannon2 I am glad to see you on today! Are you doing OK? When you disappear does that mean you're doing bad? I know you've been having a rough time. I had my first mixed episode a couple of weeks ago, it was awful! and I thought about you - didn't you say you suffer from them? Or was that Dana? I try to keep everybody's "profile" in my head, but sometimes I get confused!
I do hope you're doing ok, sweetie!
BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs
2 little ones Ellie-YIKES! However I have heard that being a grandparent is more fun!!! Yup, always takes some time to get adjusted to those meds, but boy, is it worth it!!! I am doing well, thanks for asking. You keep on going girl!!!
I have been well, just busy with school and sometimes at a loss for words! I felt like there was an "attack" coming on, but I seem to have avoided it. The akasthisia got bad again, but the clonazapem was making it hard to get up in the am so he switched me to ativan (shorter acting right) and that has worked well. However, I have been craving cigarettes and booze sooooooo bad! He thinks it might be the mirapex (I don't smoke, never had but lately I can TASTE it!) Yes, I am BP1, rapid cycler -my first diagnosis was BP NOS-I think he needed to study me to get to a solid label. The change of season worries me...plus daylight savings, errgh. I guess we all need to be super vigilant. I know I am getting better at identifying triggers and seeing warning signs...
Anyhow, gotta get back to those books-only 7 more months to go-yee haw!
Love to all,
Hi, Shannon2! I'm glad the ativan is helping. I used to take Klonopin when I wasn't on any stabilizers, and found it actually didn't touch me, haha, many days I remember taking as amny as 8 in a 4 hour period, I was just telling my pdoc it was just "anxiety", how much denial is that lol. I'm sure she was pullng out her hair on the other end of the phone line!
But now, ooohhhhhhh, it's jsut too heavy, I hate the way it makes me feel. I hate any tranquilizers, thankfully I really don't need them anymore.
I bet you're really happy about finishing school! It's such a great feeling of accomplishment, I think maybe even moreso for us, because of the struggle to get through despite being really sick. An early congrats from me! I dont' understand, you never smoked but you crave cigs? I have never heard of that?!
I dread daylight saving, also, it's bad. But, this will be the first year with Lamictal, so we'll see if it can do the job of keeping me from the bed/couch. Last year was awful, but when I started it, it didn't take long to work. Are you still on that huge dose of Seroquel?
oops, Ellie we must have posted at the same time - didn't want you to thnk I was ignoring you!
Funny, fall and winter are my favorite season, too. Always have been esp down here, the only time the weather is nice! It does feel peaceful, calm and quiet. I eps love when it snows, which it does usually once here. I miss the midwest, big snows often. Anyhoo, it does seem to affect more BPs than not, due to the lack of light. Even tho we can tend to like it dark because of the calming, it's not good for us. My pdoc has been hounding me to get a lightbox for light therapy in the fall/winter, but darn, they're like $400!!!!!!! That's a lot to me!!! Well, now that I no longer have any credit cards it is, lol.
I loaded up on Seroquel last night (and NO abilify, lol) and slept like a log. I do feel rested today, but a little groggy from it. I'm sure that will pass later, tho. Thanks for asking!!!! How about you?
Oh Girls - you all crack me up - I was just having a 'moment' here at my desk and then I read all the posts and it totally took the edge off. It means so much that I have this place I can go and realize that I'm not as nutty as I feel and there are people who understand even the silly things that can really get to you sometimes. And I think that its important to have a little laugh about it all.
And the whole daylight thing is a big one for me. I have BP II and my pdoc said that SAD is frequently common with BP II. I live waaaaaaay faaarr North and the daylight is to the extreme here (none in winter and not much dark in summer) so I actually have a dawn simulator (part of the light therapy group of devices) - helps to reset your internal clock in the winter when there isn't any daylight to help. I've done quite a bit of reading and it sounds like most people with BP have phase-delayed clocks, meaning that on average they tend to function better in the later part of the day and into the night and therefore have trouble fitting into a more "average" schedule where you need to be alert early in the morning. I try not to think about it too much, but I'm getting in gear to fight the winter blahs.
Thanks for the giggles!
Yeah, like you we get tons of sun here, but not much in fall/winter, so it's drastic as well, and really throws off my usually accurate time schedule. I notice when I'm depressed I do feel less so at night, when dawn comes, too.
Where did you find your simulator?
Hey Shannon 1
I am a little late with my reply, oops! I had taken ativan before I was on all of the drugs and it barely touched me. However, especially with 700 mg of Seroquel on board (it still shocks me) half a mg knocks me out!
As for the cigarettes, I have smoked like 5 in my whole life. I don't smoke but the craving still persists-i gave in to the booze the last couple of days-an ounce of Baileys and half a corona. Now there is none left in the house and I won't buy it sooo....bad me.
Fall is pretty, and so far I am still stable and well, I could have been assuming the worst thinking it would mean more changes. But then again I am all hopped up on lith, seroquel and mirapex-oh and ativan sooo...I should hope I am stable-plus it is costing me a small fortune!!!!
Hope ya'll are well...
Im obviously not going to be posting as much over the next few days, will when i can, tho. (sis and family evacuated Houston to here in Dallas) I will miss you guys sooooooooooooo much!