I don't know how much of a factor this is for the other posters but denial and confusion was very strong in my case.
For starters I would ask myself maybe it is just my imagination. I mean everyone is sad or energetic, right? Maybe I am just using the behavior as an excuse since I am lazy...
Then there is the general cyncism of the public towards mental disorders like they are all behavioral and have nothing to do with chemical imbalances. For example:
"Everyone thinks they have ADD and they are just trying to get time extensions or special treatment". Great so because some diagnosis of ADD is questionable all mental disorders are a sham?
Another thing is the criticism ( like Cruise in the media) from some pundits of people who try to remedy their situation by taking pills and that this is a campaign by pharmaceutical companies. As a person with BP my incentive is to live and therefore if my living is contingent on X pills than I will consume X pills regardless of naysayers and cynics. Again BP is just as physical as cancer.
Now that I am in school I am forced to see some counselor/pyschologist in conjunction with the pyschiatrist.... which is useless and fruitless. BP is 99.9 percent neuro imbalances so why would I go on a weekly basis to some pyschology intern who is about
my age. It is so ridiculous.... she cannot understand and even if she does understand what exactly is she trying to achieve. My aggression is from BP not because I am genuinely angry. My depression is from BP not because I am genuinely upset. My delusions are from BP not because I really want to dwell on them. My anti social and narcistic behavior is from BP not because I really love myself....
BP is a seriousl debilitating force and although we (or I) cannot always articulate it to other people it is a potent, ever-present machine that dictates what we do.
Post Edited (dgoldberg) : 9/23/2005 3:33:07 PM (GMT-6)