BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs
Yes, the reason I didn't respond is that you made it clear that you wanted to talk via pager, which I dont' have anyway. I got the feeling that you didn't want to post on the board like everybody else, if I got that wrong, I apologize. We really are very nice and caring people, and we love it when someone new comes along. I am sorry you're sick, maybe we can help.
I'm sorry that you felt that your first experience with this forum was not pleasant and that you see us as snobs for not replying. I hope that you will come to realize that this is a group of people who are all challenged by BP and who have our own reasons for choosing to post or not. I hope you will find that this forum is a family of caring and sensitive people who choose to find fellowship through HW. Like you, we are affected by what is written (or not written) here and work hard to be compasionate to one another. Many of us are timid to post if we do not know how to respond and I am like the others and don't use MSN, Yahoo or Pager.
Please know that this is a place where you can come to share and participate in the forum with a group of people who fight the same struggles. We do not laugh at, judge or criticize, but hope that you will find some comfort in being among friends who know what it is to battle BP.
So glad to see that you posted and hope that you grow to feel more comfortable here. Its obvious that you've had many struggles in your life, and hopefully you can find some solace here with people who empathize with your situation. My heart goes out to you and your wife for your loss. I hope that you can come here to share some of the burdens of life and know that there are hearts all over the continent willing to listen.
Hi, corey-jon -
I'm glad you posted back, too, I thought we ran you off!!!
My name is Shannon (shannon1, we have another Shannon2), both of us are nurses and BP, what are the odds????
Anyhoo, I'm BP 1 rapid cycler with psychosis also (tho I haven't had any psychotic episodes in a year and a half, phew)! Im pretty much here all the time, except when life comes around and I have to do stupid things like responsibilities, lol.
I'm sorry you have such a hard time with people, I am that way, too, but not to the extent that you have it. I hate going in public, I can't stand to be next to anybody in line, or at the movies (aisle seat a must!). I have to move way far away from someone walking toward me, becuase I can't stand my personal space invaded by a stranger. But I have found that pretty much all of us are like that. Before I was medicated I was the life of the party all the time, but could be that way for a limited time only, and of course while drunk or other..... Back by popular demand only, lol! Paranoia does run rampant with BPs, as does a lot of other weird stuff. Oh, well, at least we're unique!
Besides drag racing, what else do you do for fun? Are you artistic in any way? I paint, draw, used to play piano before I sold it for a horse that I coudln't afford to keep but did anyway via cash advances on the credit card lol. I used to show until about 5 years ago.
When did you get diagnosed BP? Did you have symptoms as a child?
Well, I hope you get the idea now that we're not "NOT friendly", lol. Welcome to HW!
I am Shannon 2. I am a fourth year nursing student diagnosed as BP1, rapid cycler last dec-what a shock that was. But I do well with my meds, thank goodness for them.
I'm sorry your initial visit here was a disappointing one, I am glad you stuck with us and shared your story! Bravo to you for hanging in there all these years, it is not an easy task. You are among people who understand, that's for sure. I am at a loss for words tonight, sorry. Again, thank you for sharing, and condolences for your many losses...
Hey, corey-j (Can I call you CJ for short?)
We have something in common - I love classical music as well, Vivaldi and any kind of chamber music are my favorites, and i LOVE 80'S!!!! I always listened to new wave, the darker bands like Bauhaus, Depeche Mode, Cure, Smiths, etc. If you have dishnetwork satellite, you can get a Sirius channel of all 80's early alternative rock. That's what I listen to all day. I know, stuck in the past, but darn, it's good!
I also have two adorable Dobermans, they are also trained well - by me and do hand signals as well as voice. They are my babies, but other people don't see them that way, lol!
Did you adopt your GSD from the police dept? Was he retired? Im just curious how you got a narcotics dog, that's interesting. Dogs rule!
Well, I tried to get canon in d on yahoo music engine, there was a list of about a thousand of them, but none available to play. I hate that! I have probably heard it, just don't know the name. I am not a conniseur (sp) of classical, I just like it esp in the fall and winter. The four seasons is my favorite of all.
Well, I'm going to my pdoc for the second time this month; I want to stop the Trileptal, even tho it works. If i'm going to stay on Abilify (dont even knwo if it will work for me yet, too early) all my meds are gonna kill me financially! We'll see what she says, she's ALWAYS right, lol, makes me mad sometimes!
I hope you're doing well today CJ, take care!