Sassie, we ALL struggle with that! (In our depressed phase, especially). Usually it starts in childhood with our parents neglect or abuse of some kind. Then, being sick and doing the bad things we do, we feel very guilty when we see it clearly. I still feel guilty even tho my husband doesn't even think about it anymore. And, we can just plain feel guilty for nothing. It just comes with the territory, either we feel superior or inferior, it goes directly with mood.
Do you mean you have cheated? Or just that you had many partners before you were married?
I think we're not supposed to talk about anythng sexual here, so if you would like to chat or email me, please do. I'll give you my yahoo name in an email.