Thanks to Sandy and Shannon, first of all, for caring so much to write , respond and other. I really appreciate the fact that you guys cared and were concerned. It takes caring and having an understanding what i went through yesterday. I know I can have bad days, and am going to but that was awful whatever it was. So i did get my referral to a pdoc, it won't be till around Christmas or after. So i have to be very careful this fall. I never in my life experienced something so scary . Recognizing the signs are important , doing something about them are entirely different. I knew they were coming on because I just wasn't me, ... that sounds funny, but I just thought I could get through them. I probably should of went to the hospital, but went to the doc today. Meds adjusted and feeling really exhausted, like someone punched me all day. So thanks alot for showing that you care. That's why we get along so well, you understand . Although I hope no one has to go through that, geez... I kept wishing earlier today how I wanted to be back where I was in July or August .. I think. I can tell a huge difference in how I am now , from then. My laughter and sense of humor has been missing in action. If you find it , please let me know. Usually I am th person crackin jokes and havin fun, wow..... Anyways it meant so much . I hope everyone has a great day.