Welcome to the forum
! I am glad you joined us.
You do have a lot going on. I am sorry for the way you are feeling. Some people tend to get depressed throughout the holidays. The cold also makes some folks mood change.
Depression is hard and takes away the joy from our lives. When you feel down, try something different. It is hard, but you have to force yourself by taking baby steps. When you want to eat because of the depression, try some healthy snacks like carrot sticks or something healthy that you may eat. This may help you control the weight.
I would suggest both you and your boyfriend sit and talk about
your relationship. You should both express yourselves and listen to each other, then decide whether you both want to move forward together or not. We have information about
Bipolar and depression here. Check our our resources by clicking on the link: www.healingwell.com/conditions/
If your boyfriend is interested, let him read up as well so he will understand what you are currently going through.
Is there any doctors or therapist that can be covered by your insurance that you can visit for some counseling? Counseling would really help you especially since you are feeling confused. Please look into it.
Remember to breathe when you feel overwhelmed.
Feel free to post or vent whenever needed. We are here for you. You are not alone.
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Depression, Borderline Personality Disorder.
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