OMG my SO finally understands (well sorta)

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always-jaded
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Date Joined Nov 2005
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   Posted 11/26/2005 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
My heart has lifted..well a little at least. I was very honest about my BP with my SO when we first met almost 3 years ago. And yes that was a hard conversation. The first 2 years I was very stable so there was never really any issues about my bp..I began to relapse about a year ago..but didn't seek help hoping I would stabilize on my own again (can you say Denial tongue ) anyways needless to say my SO and I have been fighting for the past year, mostly when I went hypo and since I rapid cycle that's often.. (BTW I went and got help from doc. a week and a half ago..I'm a little better) anyways..I went back to school and I have psychology LOL yeah Had to do a term paper and of cource I chose BP..In the report along with the facts, I added alot of my personal experiences, and how it has effected me and my children ( good, bad and the really ULGY devil ) I had him proof read it, because I sux at grammer and I guess something clicked with him..Last night there was noises outside (firecrackers I think) when I jumped at the sound and asked about it, this was the first time he told me "yes honey somethings outside I hear it too." I mean before even when he heard something I did and I asked he would just act like it was a dumb question for me to ask, and when it was an hallucination he really acted like I was off my rocker ...he really didn't get that it's important to me that someone else validates sounds for me. I have auditory hallucinations alot and I guess now I just never really trust myself on what is a real sounds and what isn't...so for me, the fact that he at least seemed to understand for the first time in 3 years just really makes me happy. I guess I just have this idea, that no one wants to committ to someone that is sick and will never "get better". And I guess we all need to feel loved and supported and just by those words he said I finally felt that he was committed for the long haul and that he would love me no matter how "sick" I get. :-) Anyways Thanks for listening...I just wanted to share my positive feelings today :-) I hope everyone is doing well and for those that are not I send my positive vibes to (((((((HUGS))))))
God give me the Strength and Love to follow my Destiny


hazel eyes
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   Posted 11/27/2005 5:54 PM (GMT -7)   
I, was diagnosed three years ago. It, hasn't been easy I am married and have to children. I take lamictal, wellbutrin-xl, and trazadone foor sleep. They help but I lately cry easily and my mood isn't always even, I know meds aren't going fix every thing. But, I think since 2002 I find I still get agitated easy and I don't like it. So, there is a lot I do understand????
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Ellie 1
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   Posted 11/27/2005 7:07 PM (GMT -7)   
Always Jaded,
It's so wonderful when someone finally "get's it". I don't think my ex ever did. My current husband still doesn't, but we're separated so it doesn't matter so much anymore.
It may seem like a little success to someone without BP but I certainly understand what an important breakthrough it is to have that special someone standing beside you, instead of standing off to the side looking at you like you're some kind of alien.
I hope things continue looking up for you.
Hazel Eyes,
Welcome to healingwell.
I would think that if you're having alot of emotional instability of late your meds may not be working as well as they should.  I would make sure I contacted my doctor and discussed it with him/her.  It may be relieved with something as simple as a med adjustment.
 
 
Take care
Ellie

Post Edited (Ellie 1) : 11/27/2005 7:16:52 PM (GMT-7)


always-jaded
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   Posted 11/27/2005 9:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Hazel Eyes
...First Welcome to Healingwell... I agree with Ellie 1. I would call the doc ASAP, and be completely honest with them ( I finally admitted after over 5 years of treatment that I have hallucinations--Can you say Major Denial) The docs can't help you unless you tell them what is wrong. I really wished I would not have waited soo long. When I went to the doc. she added Seroquel ( I'm on Lamictal and Buspar) and just in the last week and a half I fell sooo much better. :-) I'm still on the high side, but I am no where near the major raging B***H I was tongue You need to take care of yourself hun (you are the only one that can).. I really hope you feel better soon ((((HUGS)))
Ellie 1
...I truely feel for your current situation sad I know how it feels. I have had alot of wrecked relationships. My Ex was with me 2 years prior to my Dx'ed and left about 2 years after, I guess (I know) he could not handle being with someone who is "sick" and "would never get better"....But looking back I'm glad my Ex left because the man I have now really cares and can read my moods as they change and knows how to "handle" me. He knows I'm not going to "get better" and that in all reality I might get progressively worst. (LOL..I think he can handle that idea better than I can eyes )
I hope I'm not speaking out of turn Ellie 1 but I honestly believe that no matter who we are or what we are, there is someone out there, that is our "polar" match. Meaning there is someone out there that is everything that we are not and visa versa, and that when we meet each other we complete each other. :-)
I hope everything is well with you and I thank you both for your replies yeah ((((HUGS)))

Nice meeting you both and hope to talk to you again soon,
God give me the Strength and Love to follow my Destiny

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