Sorry to be a stick in the mud, but please consider Forum Rule #1 when posting...
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Troy - I truly appreciate your post and your careful consideration when choosing your words - just remember to stay within the rules. You offer lots of great support, so maybe finding another outlet for the conversation will be a better way to share your ideas.