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Art life
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   Posted 11/2/2016 1:36 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi
I was diagnosed with Bipolar I and PTSD 2 years ago after many years of being treated for depression. I am 26 and a paramedic by day and an avid artist by night with a great love of music and cats.

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   Posted 11/2/2016 1:43 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Art life,

Welcome to the forum! :-)

Thank you for sharing with us. I use to be into music but I lost interest when depression took over. I find it to be very relaxing though. I miss though days. Wish i can get it back sometimes.

Again, welcome. Feel free to post anytime.

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   Posted 1/2/2017 5:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Art life,
I am also new to this site. Like you, I also have Bipolar I (as well as anxiety and other issues) and love art and music and anything creative. I just wanted to take a minute to say "hello" and hope you are doing well.

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   Posted 1/3/2017 8:06 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Fade,

Welcome to the forum smile!

Please feel free to post about yourself. We are happy to learn more about you.

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   Posted 1/5/2017 5:04 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone:

My name is TC and I guess, I am just looking for people who are going through or have been through what I am having a really hard time dealing with. I had been out on unemployment, because once again I got "laid off" nice way of putting we can't fire you so we will lay you off.

I got a part-time job and was able to keep partial unemployment, but since things have been so bad, I can't work and have been attending IOP every day. While I do not have an official diagnosis, I have been out of work for the last month due to depression/bipolar - both (no formal diagnosis yet), appt with psych on Monday

... How do they expect us to do this? Part-time does not qualify me for FMLA, benefits, etc. Not working and no money, being on this tilt a whirl. How do they expect us to keep it together?

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   Posted 1/5/2017 6:24 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi TC:

Glad you reached out for help.

I have bipolar, also. Seems like the usual situation is they misdiagnose you for 20 years, then you finally get Lithium for your mania to go with the anti-depressant to help your depression.

Actually, I read that wrong. It was the first person on this thread who said he was misdiagnosed for a number of years, getting diagnosed first as depressive for some years, then bipolar.

So if they got you diagnosed right the first time, as bipolar, means psy. is finally catching up to the times, after 50 years.

So unemployment. Yeah, been there done that. I tried for a number of years to hold a job and couldn't do it for the most part. I have put in a number of years work over those years, but lost numerous jobs.

Couldn't figure out what was going on. I could hold a job for 6 months a lot of time, but when I looked back, I had held about 4 or 5 jobs for about 6 months. Others I held for a year or two or three, but had great difficulty with them.

Could not figure that out. I was in denial a lot of that time probably. Many years of that I had not been diagnosed, was not on medicine, and was having difficulties with jobs. My social life was not real great, either. When I married, my married life was not real great.

So, what, life in general was kinda rough. You can be positive that you can do the best you can. You can realize that the person you have to defeat is the person you have to look at in the mirror every morning.

We can realize that there are many things we can't do very well, but there are many things we can do very well. We can help somebody. We can do volunteer work which may or may not lead to a job.

We can be better in some ways than some of the best workers in the world. We just have to be positive and look for those ways.

What are some of the ways you do well? What do you enjoy doing?

Bipolar is often inherited. Does one of your parents or grandparents (it can skip a generation) have bipolar?

Sometimes it helps to know you didn't just invent this, that you may have inherited it, and it makes it easier to understand.

I talked to a lay counselor one time years ago, and he said, "I knew your uncle and he had bipolar, and you probably do, too."

That meant my mother's mother, who was mentally ill, was bipolar, and that's where I got it from. It was a relief to know where it came from, and what it was: bipolar.

The psychiatrists, about four of them, didn't know, they called it depression. They were wrong, leaving me without the benefit of Lithium.

There was no diagnosis or treatment for bipolar back then, she went from medicine cabinets to medicine cabinet in peoples houses she was visiting, looking for any pills she could take for relief. she never found it. We can be glad things have improved, I mean, we can be really glad.

No diagnose, so no medicine, right? How are you doing right now.

What lead to your going to a doctor, or seeking treatment. How was your life going?

Hope the appt. goes well Monday.

You mentioned life was like a "Tilt a Whirl." That was a ride at the fair when I was a kid. Is that where you got that expression?

Do you have housing and food until you can get financial help? It's good that your wrote in.

This is a separate topic from the one at the start of this thread, so somebody probably wants to start you a new thread.

Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 1/5/2017 5:27:15 PM (GMT-7)


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   Posted 1/6/2017 7:09 AM (GMT -6)   
TimTam:

Thank you for replying, I tend to hold everything in - don't tell anyone anything about me, and for some reason, its like in IOP, no one knows me so I can talk about it.

I apologize to all if I made a new thread or whatever I am supposed to do and didn't

Yes, been treated for depression for about 10 years but has been progressively worse and harder to control! I have held jobs some for 4 years and then something happens that sets me into this tilt a whirl motion (yes from the fair), it feels like it starts out slowly rocking back and forth and then into the full spin sometimes elated although that gets me in trouble with spending money and then like the ride comes to a complete stop and I am then so low and down and then it starts all over again

I am married to a wonderful, loving man, gosh he has to be to put up with me, but I think if I disclose the amount of money I owe out (since I have no income) that will be the straw that breaks the camels back. I have always prided myself on being a hard and good worker, now that is gone as well! Although my part-time employers knows I am out for medical reasons, they do not know the reasons, while on the phone with unemployment I disclosed everything and was told "so, you are removing yourself from the workforce." I am afraid to go there because at this point I do not trust myself or my mental self to keep from going into a full blown break down.

While looking back I have had family members with the same symptoms as me, some were put in psych hospitals but I don't think a clear diagnosis was made withinin the past 5 years or so I have a cousin who has been diagnosed as the far end of the bipolar scale with hallucinations, etc. I do not have that and hope to God that I do not develop it.

I used to enjoy working and being busy and contributing to the household, I just can't do that right now, I see the light at the end of the tunnel but I feel like I am on a stationary bike and can't get to it. I used to be the fun aunt that would gather the kids up and go to the movies, get nails done, shopping, etc., last time I fell asleep and scared the crap out of my 6 year nephew

I have a problem with control and I can't control this, yes I would say I have from both sides of the family mental illness that they used alcohol to deal with and I do not self medicate because of that

I feel fine for a week or 2 then it starts with not wanting to get out of bed, I got myself a part-time job in October by second week of December I was out of control, continuously crying, can't remember things even after I wrote them down, feeling that co-workers were talking about how stupid I am because they told me the same thing over and over and over usually I get pissed and quit but I just thought I cannot do this anymore and went to my primary who agreed that she could not handle me and sent me directly to a mental health center - who had my doctor take me out of work for 8 weeks and attend Intensive Outpatient Program, they actually wanted Partial Hospitalization Program, but, of course, insurance didn't have one they covered in my area. Feels like I am treading water and trying to get my head above the water line and something happens that has me treading faster.

Then when on phone with unemployment had to look up job's phone number and fax number and noticed that although they told me not to worry about it that I am per diem and take off what I needed (no pay, no disability benefits, etc) My job is now posted on the website.

I am indecisive, do I go under ADA, I have read online some say yes, some say no? Do I try for social security disability or partial in some way? Do I ride it out and in the meantime once I get stabilized try to find a new job? Rob Peter to pay Paul in the meantime? I have bills, I have a kid in college I have a mortgage and a car payment, etc. If I had I do not want to put this burden all on my husband!

I thank whoever started this discussion site, it is helpful to see that I am not the only one who is going through this...

If someone wants to tell me how to post correctly, please do. I tried to make sense of what I was supposed to do but I could read the same thing 10 times and it still doesn't make sense.

Thank you again TimTam!

Tim Tam
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   Posted 1/6/2017 11:48 AM (GMT -6)   
So, you're being treated for depression.

Have you taken any medicine for that?

A lot of those issues about local unemployment you'll have to go with their information.

You might also want to post on the depression forum.

Did you actually ride the Tilt-a-Whirl at the fair? I did not but I remember seeing that ride and the name of it very distinctly.
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