It does sound like you’re doing a lot better.
You said, “I'm 14 weeks now” and “I went to go see the maternal fetal medicine (MFM) Dr and also i now have a obgyn.”
That’s very good.
You said, “I joined classes at crisis pregnancy center.
“I got a food stamp application and also my boyfriend has gotten an interview fir a join making $11 an hour, so If he gets it then i can get a job that is easier on me while I'm pregnant.”
“We are also now working on getting me a new car, because mine broke down. We could get it fixed, but honestly it has so many problems that it'd be costly and my boyfriend doesn't want me driving a dangerous car especially now while pregnant and after baby is here.”
You said, “My mfm Dr said taking lamictal and clonapin was totally fine due to my situation. I will be monitored closely to make sure everything with me and baby are going well. As if right now, the baby is healthy and growing as it normally should.”
That is really, really good.
You said, “I told my psychiatrist that I wanted to try something else that was a category a medication right now and try to go ahead and taper off the clonazepam if the other medicine helps control my anxiety. She said to just stick with clonazepam and told me to take more, upping it from .5 mg 3 times a day as needed to 2 1mg a day in the morning and at night
So you’re trying to “taper off the clonazepam.” if the “other medicine helps control my anxiety.”
You said you mfm doctor said “lamictal and clonapin was totally fine due to my situation.”
Instead of tapering off, you said your psy. “She said to just stick with clonazepam and told me to take more, upping it from .5 mg 3 times a day as needed to 2 1mg a day in the morning and at night.”
You said about the increase: . “I'm not doing it. I'm only taking it when I need it. I think it's ridiculous that she wouldn't help me wean myself off and get on something safer=( This is my baby and I feel like I should get off the clonazepam if something safer works.
"I don't want to argue with her, but I want to do the best I can to make sure baby is as healthy as possible.I think I will talk to my mfm Dr and tell her how I feel and have her SeND something over to my psychiatrist so maybe I can get on something safer that I don't have to wean myself off of later on”
Your mind seems to be going off of yourself and going onto your baby.
But when we have problems we have our own problems that have to be dealt with, also.
So if we try to stay positive going into a problem (“think positive, think positive, think positive….”) maybe we can do the best we can.
Sometimes when we have somebody else to fight for, we do better.
For many years I was not good at taking up for myself. But one day when the ear doctor tld me I had a permanent ear problem (ringing in the ears), I suddenly did have something to take up for, my ears.
It was like a child, something outside of the inner core me.
Now, if someone got within 10 feet, I was ready to go, for if they got closer they might tell me to go around something loud and further hurt my ears. It changed me basically completely. Going around something loud threatened my survival, and I would fight to my death to prevent that.
But we still have our problems, and we have to do what we can about those, also, for the stronger we are the stronger the person we are trying to protect will be. Sometimes, the two come in conflict. I once tried to take care of my grandchild when he was a baby. Conflict, for I had sensitive ears to noise, and babies cry.
In a way, it was lose-lose, for I wanted to take care of my grandchild and I wanted to take care of me (my ears).
I truly did not know what to do. Oh, I did not have positive thinking at the time. I did not have that column on being positive when trying to solve a problem.
I was a fish out of water. I was in big trouble. I should have realized, this is not my child, and, I have sensitive ears to noise, and a sitter has already been arranged for. I also had a negative unconscious, which was pulling me in the wrong direction.
Oh, problem. I asked someone for advice. They gave me wrong advice. I kept the baby. Two weeks and the baby started crying. I wasn’t able to ride in a car for 6 years, for the motor was now too loud. Oh, problem.
A few years into that, I saw a column in the newspaper about being positive when trying to solve problems. Big help. For one of the problems I was having was myself. I thought negative, and since it was in my uncon. I didn’t see it. The col. helped me see that, and it has been a big help.
Let us know how you’re doing. And, oh, tell us about the baby, too.
Oh, and, how are my ears doing? Well, they’re doing OK, I guess.
I’ve taken some hits there that I’m still dealing with, but I’ve cut down on my wheat intake, since I’m allergic to that, and that’s helped my ears some. So, I guess I’ll make it.