I made the appointment probably a month ago when things were really bad and I was feeling so agitated I was miserable. Of course I'm feeling alot better now that the appt. is at hand.
I know I'm hypo at the very least. Not sleeping, restless, cleaning like a demon, (I kinda hate to put an end to that) and spending way too much money. Mostly on cleaning supplies.
I spent the day Saturday scrubbing walls and cleaning my laundry room. (Just to put it in perspective my laundry room is worse than alot of garages, we have brown recluse spiders down there and I clean it only when I absolutely must, or when hypo lol) I've scrubbed floors, carpets, cleaned closets' etc. Apparently with all this unseasonably warm weather something in my head thinks its spring. This is normal spring behavior for me.
Mainly I'm just nervous about the appt. I absolutely HATE going on new meds. I know I'm not getting my Abilify back because it doesn't come in a generic. Now I get to experiment again. YUCK! Don't see much choice though, I know I'll disolve into miserable agitation and irritability within a few weeks. Thats how it always goes. It seems like the older I get the more pronounced the swings become. I used to be able to get by without meds. Not so sure thats an option anymore. Last year was a mess. Thank goodness I get few depressions. I can only think or 3 or 4 major episodes.
Anyway, wish me luck
I hope I don't need it though
Good judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.