So, I have been diagnosed and stable on medications for about 3 years now. I have been doing really well and show almost no signs of having bipolar disorder. I finally got my life back together and am finishing a professional program in school.
The problem is that I feel incredibly insecure about having bipolar disorder. I appear stable on the outside. However, on the inside I feel like I have this wall that I have built around my emotions. Every so often I will let myself feel really bad about having bipolar disorder, and might even cry about it. This isn't all the time, and I usually don't feel very depressed.
Logically I know that I have this disease, and it isn't my fault. However, sometimes I can't help but feel like it is my fault. Sometimes I feel like if I should have been able to controled my emotions, and behaviors when I was manic. Does anyone else have these feelings about
being bipolar? It is hard for people who don't have it to understand. So, I would appreciate any feedback.
Post Edited (Jade11) : 2/2/2006 12:45:28 PM (GMT-7)