I am 33 years old and have a family history of bi polar and chemical
dependency. Always a happy girl growing up, so everyone thought,
but had my own darkness, with extreme creativity. Sometimes very
difficult to concentrate and follow through with things although
being just about a straight A student. At age 27 had a kidney stone
and was introduced to opiates, mainly vidodin and was able to
focus and concentrate although depressed a lot in a lonely marriage
to a man 12 years older with a son 8.5 years younger whom he had
full custody of. We had 2 daughters now 9 and 12. I found solice
in opiates, then put on Zoloft, Klonopin, and Ambien. I became
addicted to the Klonopin and Ambien, and all other benzos through
the years. Tried many SSRI's to no avail. Didn't know if the depression caused the drug use or if the drug use caused the depression!! Then being hospitalized a doctor diagnosed me bi polar
after talking to my current husband (an angel) and interviewing me,
put my on Abilify, I could not see clearly and could not function.
Never took it again.
Fall time went on Wellbutrin and Strattera. Not sure if it worked due
to dependency on Vicodin and other scripts. Finally went into treatment and detoxed off all addictive drugs in January. Came
home hopeful but in a state of mania, soon the worse depression
of my life, no function, no hope, dying inside for about 10 days.
Then the mania hit again, not sleeping, full of energy, creativity,
calling everyone, cooking, cleaning etc., not really focusing due
to racing thoughts. My husband told me I needed to call a doctor.
Finally I accepted the bi polar diagnosis and went to a very insightful psychiatrist yesterday who talked to me for 45 minutes.
She put me on Lamictal, the starter pak and Neurontin which
also acts as a mood stabilizer. I was on Neurontin in treatment
and found it to calm my nerves and help me sleep. I am hopeful.
Anyone with experience on either drug? Took 2 doses of Lamictal,
feel a slight headache and achey but alright so far.
Thanks for all the great info on these boards.