I have been on lithium now for 4 months. It seems to be very successful for me. I know where your coming from though, when I started it I was in the hospital. I remember them telling me I would be starting lithium and I freaked out. Just the name I guess seems really scarey. Just so you know every body has different reaction to different drugs. I just wanted to say that I also have not been manaic since I started lithium, I do have weight gain but I think that it is mostly from the seraqual. I hope that it works good for you.