Hello all - im back again, with even more questions. Oh, what would i do without HealingWell?
I have some major questions for you all. Im in between a rock and a hard spot here, and im having a very hard time dealing with it. Basically Im getting married in 4 weeks, and trying to find insurance to cover my treatment costs (ha). Ive been declined by my fiance's coverage (which i would have been added onto) and I have been told that i basically wont qualify for any insurance because i am bp. Currently i am covered by my parents insurance as i am a student living at home, but will lose this once im married. As far as I know, I dont have any other options other than my furture husbands insurance, which is actually not an option. So this leaves me with...nothing. I dont know what job i will have, as im moving out of state after the marriage, and have not found a job as of yet.
What options are there? I need treatment - medications and doctor coverage is a must. But i cant get it...and its not as if we will be making enough to afford it. Where do i go for help? I know i wont be eligable for Medicaid - but there has to be something, right?
On top of trying to figure out where all of my resources are - im just overall having a really hard time with this one. I hate myself for having this disease that is socially unacceptable, and ultimatlely something that will just cause my family problems. I want nothing more than to go off my meds and deny the fact that it even exists. I feel like im an outcast, and that the world would be better off without me. That is the message im getting anyhow. No one is willing to help someone like me. I must just be crap under someone elses shoe. Im fighting giving up - and im having to fight really really hard. My family doesnt understand why its such a big deal to me - but the fact of the matter is that it is a big deal to me. They are trying to help, calling around and all of this, but they cant help me feel less crazy, and they cant help me feel like i wont be a burden to them for the rest of my life, even if its only financially. Maybe all of this is just more stress than i can handle right now. I dont know - but I dont know what to do or where to go anymore.
Please let me know if you have any advice for me. I need something, i need to know what to do before i just lose it and quit. I want to find options and give hope a chance - but i dont even know where to start.
Thanks for your help.