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lilmomma
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Date Joined May 2006
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   Posted 5/24/2006 10:06 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi,

 

I was searching the web doing some research on bipolar disorder and I came across this message board.  I have some questions and I was wondering if someone would be willing to answer them.

 

To be short, I am pretty sure I am bipolar.  I’ve done a lot of research and reading and all the symptoms fit me exactly.  I’m not really in denial about it but I haven’t really taken any steps to help myself either.  When I’m down, it’s really bad.  Lately it’s gotten so much worse then ever before.  Then other times my mind feels like it is constantly racing and I have no way of slowing it down.  I have times where I feel great, like I am on top of the world.  I’m to the point that I am tired of feeling like I am battling myself all the time.  I just feel tired and I can’t do it anymore.  I know its time to get help.  My wake up call came a few weeks ago when my 4 year old asked me “Mommy, are you going to be happy, mad or sad today”.  That was such a punch in the gut for me and a HUGE wake up call. (I also see some signs in him but I don’t know if its because he sees it from me)  I feel like people don’t even want to be around me anymore because they don’t know what my mood will be. 

 

Here is my dilemma.  I really don’t know how to go about getting help.  I know it sounds stupid but I really don’t feel like I can talk about this with anyone.  I’m not really close to anyone anymore so I don’t feel like I have anyone to confide in.  I also feel like either people won’t take me seriously or they might think I am totally nuts.  I just have so many mixed emotions right now.  Where do I start?  Where do I go?  What are some of your experiences on how you got help?  I just really need some guidance in the right direction.

 

Thanks for listening! 


lemongoat
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   Posted 5/25/2006 10:22 PM (GMT -7)   
having a psychiatric doctor i trusted and respected really helped. i didn't really feel lke anyone understood until i started reading these forums too. the dbsa one is really good too. i felt alone for a long time, i'm glad you already found the forums. sounds like you do have bipolar diorder. it's wierd when you can even see yourself being so unpredictable. a psychiatrist or a psycho-pharmacologist are a good place to go to talk about your sypmtoms. mood chating is good to start now so you have something to bring to the doc. dbsa has a good one. many bipolar books have ones you acan xerox too.

good luck,

kelly

lemongoat
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   Posted 5/25/2006 10:23 PM (GMT -7)   
I meant mood charting. oops.

kelly

whitedog
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   Posted 5/26/2006 7:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi:
 
From what you've said, I think you're half way there already.  Now alll you need to do is find a Pdoc, get on meds and then figure out how to explain it to people.
 
When I finally decided to seek treatment, I'd known I had BP2 for about 6 months from reading Patty Duke's book A Brilliant Madness.  I was finishing up my accounting degree and had fallen into a deep depression.
 
I looked in the phone book for a Pdoc, called and got an appointment, went in and told her I was BP2 and got on meds.  The rest is history.  Might add too, that I didn't have a PCP at the time.
 
The way they 'diagnose' BP is by taking your 'history' along with a family history.  Things such as alcoholism, drug addiction, suicide attempts and the like are alll indicators of a mood disorder.  The reason you see these behaviors in BP is that we attempt to self-medicate with drugs and alochol.
 
Don't worry about telling people you're BP.  I told someone in one of my classes and she said she knew!!!  She was BP1 and could see it in me.  
 
There are tons of meds out there so if one doesn't work, you can always try something else.  
 
It's wonderful not having my mind race the way it used to.  That's what I hated the most--couldn't slow down no matter what I tried.  Now that I'm on Lamictal, even when I'm hypomanic, it isn't nearly as bad.
 
Best wishes. 
Hayley


lilmomma
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   Posted 5/31/2006 6:50 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for your answers.  What exactly does Pdoc stand for?

lemongoat
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   Posted 6/3/2006 12:19 AM (GMT -7)   
psychiatric doctor

tdoc therapist/conseling
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