Hi there, i was like you during my teens, that was 8years ago. Honestly, i don't know how i manage to survive till today, but now is worst than before, i am diagnose of having fibromyalgia, it is very rare over here in singapore,you can imagine the stress i am going through... I am all alone, people tend to ask what is FM, worst, not all doctors recognise FM here.
I've been struggling for the past 10years,i think i can't go on any further... I become very depress and thoughts of ending my life is BACK again. I am very confuse, is it that i really am mentally ill or is it that pressure i face in everyday life. My boss (doctor) vent his anger on me, some nonsense patients, show me their temper, boyfriend also vent anger on me. I am a human, i have feelings. I just kept quiet when people blow their top, no point talking back at them... end up quarrel only. What for?
I was married once, i struggle to survive for husband... now, i don't know. I am the same as you, trapped... but don't know what is trapping us. So it is really difficult to recover. I was been abuse and sexually abuse as a kid, maybe that is the reason. How to untie this hurting knot, i don't know, doctor can't either.