This is really weird to me.Horrifying really.
For years I have dealt with massive moods swings,anger,depression,feelings of hopelessness,forboding doom,paranoia and social nervousness.
Of course intermingled with great fleeting joys,confidence,feelings of grandiose power and engery.
I thought this is just my personality.I just wondered if life was this hard for everyone..
Today, my Pdoc, diagnosed me with mild Bi-Polar and mania? I dont really know what this means.I was given a VERY low dose of Serquel 12.5 mg to be taken at night.
I am also very pregnant, with symptoms intensifying.
My Husband and I have decided that I will NOT take this medication, untill the baby is safetly here.
Why risk my baby's health, for a disorder, that I have managed alone all these years.
I will begin taking it after the baby is born, to be sure I am helping myself ~thus helping my family ect..
I dont really know what my question is.How do they know for sure you have this disorder? How do you accept it? How do you know what type of med is safe/good for you?I am worried the affects may be worse, than the daily dealing with my ups & downs and yelling ect..
I am confused.Hurt.Angry & sad that this a reality?Or do Doctors just come up with these 'disorders' , and over medicate everyone? Could my 'disorder' just be a natural reaction to struggles of life?
Can anyone reccomend a med that has helped thier 'mild' disorder?
Thanks for the board, support .