I think that many of us here have been where you are. You would think that as far as science has come, there wouldn't be such a social stigma on mental illness. I don't feel it is something that we should have to hide, but I must admit to being very selective about
who I reveal my diagnosis to. Many people simply don't understand.
Could it be also, that because of your depressed state that you may be reading more into peoples reactions than is actually meant? I know when I'm down, I tend to feel that noone cares about
me and my friends have abandoned me, when that is simply not the case.
And if they are acting differently, and shying away from you, perhaps they don't know much about
the disorder and are afraid of saying the wrong thing.
I will say, I have lost friends because of this. Or at least people I had perceived as friends. True friends don't bail in a crisis. They are the ones who walk in as everyone else walks away.
You've found a good place in Healingwell. There is no judgement here, just support. Feel free to post often, even if its just to vent. We all need to do that sometimes.
Good judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.