When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...********************
Thanks so much. It's been a good week. And, thank you too, Ladydragonfly, for your sobering comments. There is a large amount of truth in what you say. I remember reading a psychology text book years ago, and recognizing practically everyone I knew including myself in the definitions of the various mental illnesses and emotional disabilities. I guess we just reach a point where we want some kind of definitive answer for bad behavior. Especially when the same bad behavior occurs over and over again with no apparent explanation.
My goal at this point is to enjoy these good days and use them as an opportunity to let my son and daughter know that this is what I expect from them from here on. I plan to take this time to take care of myself, and who knows, maybe even find some enjoyment in life. It occurs to me that life is all about trust, and that fear is the thing that gets us every time. If my kids don't know that I'm here for them by now, they never will. So, with that thought in mind, I am going to get on with my day, and throw off the fear that these good days won't last and that trouble is just around the corner. At least I'm going to give it my best shot. Bye for now. Thanks again for the support.