This is a very special moment for me.
For the first time in my whole life I have just taken a mood stabiliser.
For the first time in my WHOLE life, my moods are going to be brought back to the normal.
This will hopefully bring a good respite on Rob too, as he's had to put up with an awful lot recently.
This is the start of something new. Something wonderful. Everything should now change for the better.
I'm not deluded that this is a cure.
I know I will have problems still, and I have learnt so well recently to recognise those problems in advance, and I am working on ways of dealing with them.
I have a lot of support at Uni and in the medical practice here.
This is it.
My life is literally changing completely.
I'm starting university, I'm finally getting treated for my bipolar, the mental health advisor said I can get counselling or anything I need for the abuse.
My GP is fabulous and I should be able to get a wheelchair sorted out, and the rest of my physical problems.
This is a new chapter.
Not to say that what's gone before now wasn't important, or wasn't good. A lot of it was good, and I am the sum of my experiences.
But it is past.
I have fond memories, and that is good.
I have bad memories, but I can cope with those, I will learn to cope with them better.
This is a turning point.
I feel quite weepy with happinesss.
My life is changing, and it's going where I want it to go finally.
I'm 25 and nothing has ever gone the way I want it, except finding and staying with my boyfriend, and getting my cats and my Dad surviving all his surgery.
3 things in my whole 25 years that I have wanted and I have got.
Now things will change.
The future is looking so good right now.
I'm sorry this is so long, but this is such an important moment to me. My whole life we've known there is something wrong with me mentally. And I've been denied any kind of help.
And now... now things are really being sorted out.
And taking that purple tablet... everything is different now.
And that difference is good.
Thank you all for being there for me, you've all been absolutely fabulous.
Thoracic Outlet Syndrome from birth - Diagnosed 1999
Fibromyalgia from birth - Diagnosed 2005
(?) Ulcerative Colitis - waiting for tests
(?) BiPolar - currently on Diazepam whilst waiting for assessment.
No other medicines - doctors are useless!