I'M NEW HERE I WILL START BY SAYING THAT I AM NOT SO NEW TO MOODS DIS ORDERS AS I AM TO COMPUTORS YES I KNOW IT'S 2006
MY DAUGHTER IS 15 YRS OLD SHE HAS BEEN SEEING DOCS SINCE SHE WAS 6 1/2 WHEN THANK GOD A DOC LISTINED TO ME THAN THEY SAID SHE HAD OCD. DEPRESSION. ANXIETY. AND A LEANING DISABILITY. WHAT A HAND FULL.
SO I STARTED TAKING HER 2X AWEEK 4HOURS UP AND 4 HOURS BACK TO SEE SPEC DOCS.
NOW EIGHT YEARS LATER WE LEAN SHE HAS BP1 MIXED AND BLACK MOODS HELP ME I AM AT A LOSS. I FEEL THAT EVERYTHING I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR EIGHT LONG YEARS IS FOR NOTHING. SHE CAN BEARLY TALK TO ME W/O FLYING OFF THE HANDLE. SHE IS IN THE HOSP. NOW 10 DAYS SO FAR AND IS ON ABILIFY. HOW LONG BEFORE IS WORKS SO WE CAN SIT DOWN WITH DOC AND HAVE A TALK
I'M SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I JUST AM SO EMPTY AND LOST.
When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...********************
Hi Lost Mom,
So sorry to hear about your daughter--but glad she is being diagnosed at a young age. The earlier the symptoms are treated in life, the less severe the course of the disease, is what I was told. Untreated episodes cause a "kindling" effect--they escalate each time. I was diagnosed at around 35 but know I have had the disease since I was in my teens. I medicated for years (till 30) with drugs and alcohol. Not a good mix with bp! but...everything for a reason I guess.
Remember she is still the child you gave birth to--this is all just part of her individual journey. Don't look into the future and try not to have your pain in advance. Today will put enough for you to concern yourself with. It really does help to do the day at a time thing with this illness. Sometimes that is the hardest thing for me to remember and I get caught up in what-ifs and scary scenes of the future. It isn't here yet and I can't go there in my head because I always come up with worst case scenarios.
Two months ago I could barely walk or leave the sofa. Today I feel so good--change in meds, change in outlook, some gratitude. BP is a disease of change, just like life.
She is lucky to have such a loving Mom. And you don't sound so lost--you sound like you are grieving the diagnosis of your beloved daughter. Thank God for your humanity.