The past rears its ugly head!

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lazy
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Date Joined May 2006
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   Posted 10/19/2006 3:50 PM (GMT -7)   
It's horrible, being judged by my past and not even looking to who I am now and why I was the way I was then.  People just don't get it...don't want to give me a chance to explain that I am not who I used to be.  Being diagnosed bipolar gave me a new life because the medication was so life changing in a positive way.  But I didn't count on the past being shoved in my face by the work force.  I've been feeling depressed anyway and now I feel thrown away.  I loathe self pity! Don't want to feel this way and I think I need to change my antidepressant.  Going to a new psychiatrist next week.  The old one is fine but his receptionist (who is also his wife) is such a *****.  She has never been nice to me and the last thing I needed today was her bad attitude. I think I'm ranting so thanks for listening...I just needed to get it all down....Lazy

CounterClockwise
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   Posted 10/20/2006 1:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh Lazy, this is all too common -- but that doesn't make it right!! I've had this with my depression, and I still don't know what the "magic" solution is (anyone out there got the formula? --c'mon, stop hiding it!). I felt like I was being treated like an outcast and imbecile after one particularly bad period -- and what they just didn't get was that it took more effort than nmost of them expend in a *lifetime* of work just to keep myself functioning enough to even *be* at work during that time. Grr ... still makes me cross! Well, I know the frustration you have right now, and all I can say is that, in the wider scheme of things, people have fairly short memories. A year or so on and I am beginning to be treated normally again (no pitying looks or avoidance!). It takes time (and, if you're anything like me, you won't forget that treatment easily, you'll watch out for it, and you'll resent it like crazy! -- but even that's beginning to pass!), but it does seem to happen -- and I like to think that when those people reflect, they come to realise how narrow-minded they've been and become just that little more educated!!

I remember you saying about your last pdoc and his wife! Bleurgh! I'm very glad you're seeing a new one!! -- Hope it works out really well. -- Let us know!!

Rosie x
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wmnak
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   Posted 10/22/2006 1:54 PM (GMT -7)   
(((((lazy)))))
 
i can't say that i know exactly how you feel but i have had similar experiences in my life.  you have all my love, affection, and admiration.
 
get knock their socks off, girl!
 
warren

lazy
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Date Joined May 2006
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   Posted 10/23/2006 5:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks guys...as usual, you make me feel better about myself and my situation.
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