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gaz
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   Posted 10/29/2006 7:10 AM (GMT -7)   
MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY SAY THAT I AM ACTING STRANGLEY I AM VERY HIGH ALSO VERY AGREESIVE I GO JOGGING QUITE A BIT BUT YESTERDAY GOT INTO A FIGHT BECAUSE SOMEBODY SHOUTED AT ME IVE FALLING OUT WITH MY SISTER AND DAD IVE SELF HARMED VERY BADLY TRYING TO CONTROL MY MOOD I THINK THE ECT HAS HELPED BUT TOO WELL I ALSO PUNCHED A HOLE IN MY BEDROOM DOOR HAS ANYBODY GOT ANY ADVICE I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENING NEVER BEEN AS AGRRESSIVE AS THIS BEFORE I WONDER IF THE ECT I THINK IT HAS HAS DONE THIS THANKS GAZ

CounterClockwise
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   Posted 10/29/2006 8:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Gaz,
 
Blimey, this sounds very not good... . You need to get in touch with your pdoc asap and get him/her to help you through this. Yes, like you I'm worried that the ect has triggered this.
 
You might also find the following link helpful: http://www.selfinjury.com/index.html
You definitely need to put a stop to the self-harming. It doesn't solve anything, and I know that you know that.
 
Could I also ask you to take the caps lock off hun? -- I know when you feel terrible sometimes normal lettering doesn't seem enough, but believe me, your desperation comes through without them, and the caps just make the post harder to read (and I think you need as many people to read and respond to you as possible right now). Thanks!!
 
Big hugs (((Gaz))) -- wish you weren't suffering with all of this. But I know you have the strength to fight it. -- Stay strong and get that help.
 
Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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wmnak
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   Posted 10/30/2006 4:46 AM (GMT -7)   
gaz, my friend, mi amigo (i live in south tx), what's going on with you.  i have suffered with anger most of my life.  when i was much younger (nobody would ever believe this now) i got into fights all the time and almost always "won" (whatever that means)  i have also put my fist through doors and walls.  i was one ANGRY dude with enough fighting skill to take on anybody and turn them into bloody lumps.  not a good place to be.  i also discovered that taking this hostility out on myself (several suicide attempts) didn't help.  you're going down the wrong pathway there, my friend.  i know.
 
my new pdoc sayss that my anger is not coming from mania but from depression.  i have been on welbutrin for about a week and it has made a massive difference.
 
i agree with rosie.  see your pdoc immediately or, if things get too bad or out of control get yourself to the er.
 
i know that you're strong enough to get through this, gaz.  you are also resorceful.  i know that you will find the tools to get you through this.
 
may god bless you and hold you in the palm of his hand.
 
warren

CapninHapnin
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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 11/1/2006 5:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Gaz

I've not been here in a while so I have not met you yet, but welcome. In the business world I exist in, I often have arrogant, you knows, tell me how tough they are, how they almost beat up someone and such. I always wondered what I did to elicit such responses. Well, come to find out that I and many other BPer's have a very dangerous rage just below the surface and it is noticeable. And it is a very dangerous rage.

I like warren, was in one to two fights a week in my younger days. I always won, not because of my skills, but because I had a much higher pain threshold and a much lower self worth (I was mostly apathetic towards my injuries) than my adversaries and could outlast anyone.

My Pdoc suggested I take up a martial art. Seemed kind of dangerous with my rage problem, but he said it has been very helpful for people like me. Yes, it helped tremendously. I can now beat up anyone without getting beat up myself. (Just Kidding). I went for the contact arts, spent alot of time on speed and big bags and that did much to settle me down. Plus my instructors (didn't have a sensei) were skilled in working with me in a very calm and rational manner. No, they didn't beat me up, but they were very adept and used to dealing with rage problems. I now have an activity I love and it is helping my anger. I don't even want to be a cage fighter anymore ;)

Maybe this is something you can look into.

Best of luck to you Gaz You are in my prayers

Cap
I want "I wish I had one more day to spend at the office" on my tombstone.

Post Edited (CapninHapnin) : 11/1/2006 5:30:09 PM (GMT-7)


CounterClockwise
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   Posted 11/1/2006 5:30 PM (GMT -7)   
Cap, you make me laugh so much! Have missed your humour around the place -- and the great ideas that come with it!! (And this is something a girly-girl like me would never have thought of -- but goodness don't I just wish I had!) Gaz, this might really be a good idea for you. Hope when you get back from the hospital it's something that you and your pdoc can think more about.

Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Moderator, Bipolar Forum


wmnak
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Date Joined Jul 2006
Total Posts : 1123
   Posted 11/1/2006 7:20 PM (GMT -7)   
i agree about the martial arts. i tried them for a while but ran out of money. pity. i actually liked the activity.
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