Spent 6 days in the hospital, not fun at all.....

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   Posted 11/12/2006 1:36 AM (GMT -6)   
I went into a manic phase on halloween and spent around $300. May not sound like a lot, but it is to me and my family. Then when I got them all home, I unpackaged everything so there was no chance of them being returnable. It was all just stuff. I bought me a Cabbage Patch Doll whose name is Michelle Lizette, she has blond hair and green eyes. I bought a bunch of CD's and DVD's etc. We'll get back to the doll in a minute. Anyway, I'm sitting in my living room with all these packages around me and I start crying, hard. There was a big booming voice saying "just do it, just do it, no one cares anyway." Then there was a very small, faint voice that I could hardly hear saying, "no, call your therapist." I listened to the small voice. I called my therapist. He asked if he could send the cops over, "What the hell, won't make anything worse, do it." So in come 4 cops, one a lady. They were very nice. They made me wear handcuffs because it's for insurance, if we got in a wreck blah, blah, blah. Left big bruises. Oh well, she was really nice. And off to the ER I go. After several hours of evaluations etc, they shipped me to UNI, University Neuropathic Institute. They get people from everywhere. Met people from No. Carolina, Texas, Louisiana, Colorado, and Tennessee. They were really good. Had work shops almost all day long. The doctor rearranged most of my meds and i'm feeling a little better, not much.  My beautiful husband has been through the ringer. He didn't eat or sleep while I was gone, too worried he said. Anyway, he's been home all week and is staying home tomorrow. I just don't trust myself to be alone. I'm scared. He needs his job, but I'm scared. I can go to my parents during the week and be ok. But when will I be ok by myself? I'm terrified. Anyone have an answers?
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   Posted 11/12/2006 5:18 AM (GMT -6)   
You will be ok by yourself, it will just take a little time to get back into the swing of things.
I felt exactly like this when I got out of hospital, I was scared to be on my own. When my boyfriend was at work I spent my time on his computer, or in his bed so I was thinking of him all the time, to prevent myself from doing anything stupid.

Your medications have been changed a little, give them some time to get you back to normal, and don't worry. We all have phases like this, we all need a little help sometimes.

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   Posted 11/13/2006 1:13 PM (GMT -6)   
you've been through a lot.  give yourself a chance to heal.  your meds have been changed and your environment has been changed.  major stressors.  just be good to yourself at this stage.
staying with your parents to be cared for is probably a good idea.  iif anything happens, they can call for help.  staying by yourself part of the time?  nothing succeeds like success.  build on it.  soon you'll be as good as it gets.

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   Posted 11/13/2006 7:55 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey there see

Just got out of the hooscal myself. Maybe thats not a good word for it, but that is what I call it. Been there many times, gotten to know the help pretty well. There is no shame in seeking help. None at all. Your noggin needs a chance to heal. There has been a major misfire, the chemicals were all out of balance and it takes a while to get back in adjustment. If you had cancer and just went through chemo, you would need time to heal. If you had a heart attack, you would need time to heal.

You have a medical condition. It won't go away, but it can be kept in relative check. But it doesn't stay away without treatment. The treatment is long and tedious, and quite frustrating at times. You have a wonderful support system in place. Use it, rely on it, and love it.

Best of luck, praying for you

I want "I wish I had one more day to spend at the office" on my tombstone.

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