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seechell
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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 11/16/2006 7:33 PM (GMT -7)   
what is going on inside my head. I'm a mess tonight. Have been for the last couple of days. Everything sets me on edge. Everything is wrong. I jumped all over my husband for no real reason, just because it felt good to yell. I'm tired of fighting this. I'm tired of all of the ups and downs and never knowing which kind of day it will be. I feel like I need to go back to the hospital, but hubby won't like that. I was up all night last night. I'm just so very tired.
Take Care,
               Chelle
    "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
  DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
  RX: synthroid, estradiol, cymbalta, geodon, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, phenergan, esgic plus PRN for migraine)
  Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006
 
 


CapninHapnin
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 285
   Posted 11/16/2006 10:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Chelle

I am so sorry about the ups & downs your experiencing. If you feel you need to go to the hospital, you should defintely go. If you need to go, you need to go. Hubby will just have to accept that.

This is a downer, but I have come to accept this condition. At first I was scared, then I was angry, then I realized I can't change this and will have to be treated the rest of my life. I am okay with that.

I have to remind myself quite frequently that us BPer's have a higher IQ than the general population, we can be very gregariuos, we can survive, and sometimes we are lucky enough to be surrounded by people that care about us.

The ups and downs are a part of this and are very frustrating. But there is treatment to help you through this.

Good luck

Cap
I want "I wish I had one more day to spend at the office" on my tombstone.

I used to be crazy, but now I have enough money to be called eccentric.


sukay
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Date Joined Feb 2003
Total Posts : 1432
   Posted 11/17/2006 6:09 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Chelle,
 
Sorry to hear what's been going on with you but I do understand. I am going through the same thing right now but my pdoc has been adjusting my meds for me for the last month.
 
I feel great during the day by myself, very motivated and happy but once another person enters the picture I get very irritable. It's like if I didn't have to deal with others I would be just fine. But the anger issue is getting out of control and it's not fair to those around me so I KNOW I will be needing another med adjustment.
 
Hope you contact your doctor soon and let him know how you are doing. It sounds like you too may need another med adjustment. We don't have to live this way.
 
Good Luck Chelle, and I hope you keep us posted.
 
Sincerely, ~Sukay!*

seechell
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 362
   Posted 11/17/2006 7:02 AM (GMT -7)   
thanks Cap and Sukay-
It helps knowing that others are going through the same thing too. I appreciate the advise.
Take Care,
               Chelle
    "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
  DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
  RX: synthroid, estradiol, cymbalta, geodon, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, phenergan, esgic plus PRN for migraine)
  Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006
 
 


harukakimiko
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Date Joined Jul 2006
Total Posts : 40
   Posted 11/17/2006 11:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Chelle,
*hugs* hope you like them = ^ . ^ =

I agree with Cap if you think you need to go to the hospital then you should go.
I'm sorry your going through a hard time now...I really hope good days come to you. I don't have much advice since I'm new to this bp thing. I can give an understanding nod with hugs.

"I feel great during the day by myself, very motivated and happy but once another person enters the picture I get very irritable. It's like if I didn't have to deal with others I would be just fine." Sukay thanks for posting that. I felt that for a couple of days...poor friends on the recieving end.

~Kimberly~
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