welcome to hw and to this forum. i admit that my sence of humor is an aquired taste.
i was diagnosed with bp after my last suicide attepmt in 2001. in my 60 yrs, i have attempted suicide at least 8 times. i guess i'm just a failure. the last time was due to a botched epicural steroid injection. i was in so much pain that i was willing to do anything to getout of it. i my wife caught me downing a bottle of my opiod pain pills.he saved mjy life.
in addition to the bp and chronic depression, i fell down a flight of stairs in 1990 and ruined my back. i have ben on ss disability sonce 1991. in 2002 i had a liminectomeny (an 18 inch titamiam rod screwed into my back) and all of the peripheral nerves severed. the surgion told me there were no discs left in my spine - just bone on painful bone.
i also have copd - really fun. i'm ok most of the time, then i start weasing and can't breath. a breathing treatment takes just under hald an hour. but i am reluctant to spend the time on it. niot being able to breath does get my attention, though. lol
what i'm trying to say, tipsey, is that each and every one of us has our own hell and our own version ov purgatory. we each cope with it in our own unique way. as i've said before, life is too important to be taken seriously. now baseball. . . .