When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...********************
Thanks so much for your reply. The last two lines of your message are exactly what I need to hear..words of comfort, I swear, nothing helps me more.
So, the job issue (I also saw your job issue thread that you posted...that's great, thanks for bringing attention to this issue). I have lost many jobs due to my illness, meaning I either cannot perform and I lose it, or the management somehow found out about my illness and took advantage of that to get me out. In my current role, I am in my 4th call center. Have been here almost a year and was hired as a temp. I had to prove myself over the last year in sales, and have come literally 25 pts away from that goal and b/c I didn't meet it, I am not getting hired on with this company, therefore I will no longer bere after December. I have worked harder than I ever have before at this job, under extreme pressure and stress. I acutally don't even know how on earth I have done it, any of it. I do have a lot to be proud of, it's just hard to accept the fact they won't give me a chance to succeed in a less stressful situation (I believe I would be able to peform better without the "temp" thing hanging over me). As a temp employee, I have absolutely NO rights here, believe me, I looked.
As far as the therapy, it is very very limited in my area but I am looking. I would like to have my bf try to be more involved with my recovery (I was going to say illness...but I used recovery instead). After our argument, I realize he really said some hurtful things and that he's not trying to understand this.
Anyway, thanks again for all of your support, I feel like things are completely falling apart, and I am overwhelmed in trying to keep them together, almost all alone.
Hugs, prayers to all of you,