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   Posted 12/3/2006 3:31 PM (GMT -6)   
still coming of meds well actually stopped completly a few days ago missed my appointment on tuesday couldnt be botherd havnt spoken to my sister for over a week chased my best friend stopped seeing my other friends i am aware that i am isolateding myself but i dont care friends and sister have tried to talk to me but told them where to get off but i dont feel guilty and have no intesion of making up hard to describe i just have this feeling that i dont want to does this make sense.

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   Posted 12/3/2006 6:40 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling the need to isolate yourself. Guilty is not what you should feel, or what anyone really wants to feel. I do wonder though if it isn't a double edge sword for many of us. We want to be alone, if for no other reason to have some control in our surroundings; yet we need people so we don't slip into a bigger funk. We push people away when we really need them the most. Be kind to yourself, don't worry about what you've said and let people be nice to you. Your worth it and maybe you'll even enjoy the pampering. Have a better day and hope you get another appointment soon.
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   Posted 12/4/2006 2:33 AM (GMT -6)   
People who don't have this illness do not understand what goes on in the heads of those who do. I don't know about you, but I find it intensely embarrassing. I don't have a lot of bipolar issues right now but when I do, I hide out. I just don't want to know. I can't control my feelings, or I don't think I can. I don't want others to see me when I am like that either. It is a combination of guilt, but more importantly a need to avoid the judgment of others. I think as bipolar people, we get more than our fair share of judgment from the rest of the world. It is, therefore, easy for us to lose sight of the good things in ourselves, to not appreciate the wonderful people we are and live in a state of shame over an illness we cannot control. Others don't understand that there is no "magic pill" that makes it all go away, it is a daily struggle, not the least of which is the embarrassment of the harsh comments, judgment and blame that others place on us. They seem to think we choose to be this way just to make their lives harder!

I say, cope as best you can. You do what you need to do. Isolation can be a bad thing, or it can be an opportunity to regroup and sort yourself out. Frequently it starts as the former and become the latter. Be patient with yourself. You have been down a similar road before and you know that this will pass, but it sucks when you are actually IN it. We are here for you.
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Yes, it was me...I know because I was there when I did it. Lupus sufferer, bipolar II sufferer. Currently on Indocin for chronic pericarditis related to lupus, and cherishing every deep breath without pain. Currently in graduate school for mental health counseling, class of Fall 2007. Vegan and loving it!

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   Posted 12/4/2006 9:46 PM (GMT -6)   
I hear you completely.  If anything, I think this stage is the worst part of being bipolar.  I always have the tendency
to hide out when things start going south.  It's really bad, especially when people have no idea what's going on.  In the last year, I've really alienated alot of pretty good friends by completely disappearing for about 3 months.  Most of my close friends from the past though, are very busy with work, and recognize that we won't be in contact for extended periods of time.  However, with my neighbors this past year, it was obvious that I was around at times and didn't contact them.
It's a tough time, because when you tell people they often don't understand.  Even if they try to be there, most people don't really want to hear about all of your problems for extended periods of time when it goes sour.  Hence the solution, hiding out.  I know this is not a good thing but cannot break the cycle.  As a fairly outgoing person, I find it impossible to be around people who know me when I'm not depressed.  The funny thing is, they really don't see my manic phases as anything really too abnormal. 
Anyway, I believe you have to do what you have to do.  I would rather alienate people who don't understand and hold this against you as opposed to letting them see you in shambles.  You won't feel bad about this until you start to feel better anyway.  It can be very frustrating to try and extend yourself too at this point, and I've had too many people say "What happened? You used to be so much fun".
Tough time, but don't give up.  The best thing to do is probably tell people what's happening the best you can and then disappear if you have to.  Atleast then, they will have known prior to the problem occuring and jumping back into life will be easier when you get better.  Not telling anyone can be dangerous, and often people will think you are just making excuses for your behavior when explaining after it's over.
Good Luck
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