Hello rainey ,
I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time.
From where I'm standing there IS something wrong. When he is low does he get depressed , has he ever hinted that something might be worrying him about the way he acts when he's high.
It seems people are sometimes less in denial when they are low , but totally defensive of themselves when high.
You have had the courage in the past to get a restraining order - do you think you could find the courage to tell a professional about his symptoms so that they can get involved? It doesn't look like he will get help on his own. It may mean you won't be together while he starts treatment as he might resent the fact that you told someone about him , and he may get angry , but in the long run it will benefit you both.
Let me know how you are , no matter what you decide to do.
Take care ,
yeah , if he's not truely wanting help then he probably won't ever change even if you do get someone out to him.
I had to leave someone because of their behaviour towards me - I only lasted 7 years.
I'm still on speaking terms with him and I take our daughter to see him.
I am now in a happy relationship - 5 years so far.
There is life after divorce.