hey socks, i had no idea you had ben thru so much. no wonder you are so down - death is a terrible blow, especially when children are involved, so distressing. you must be suffering everyone elses pain, as well as your own. im so sorry for all concerned.
and don't i know about the teenage thing - my kids have had me in tears more times than i care to remember - my son wentthru his "hormonal phase" and often couldnt bear the sound of my voice - it was so painful for me, but i knew what he was going thru and could forgive him - just give him a lot of "room" and leeway to go thru it - im sure you'll al be fine.
and dont forget to take time out for you - a nice long walk in the sunshine or a candlelit bath with loads of yummy essential oils - you're the one who counts the most - likeyour t says - fix you first and all else will follow!!
who knows what tomorrow may bring
fight your way thru the darkness-
you will find,
your own song