i am so sorry for this set of events. i guess it shows that pdocs and therapists are human, too, with the same prejudics and foibles as the rest of us.
olivia, you are a smart woman. you know that bp will never go away and that the symptoms will get worse if not treated. ok, so you got shafted by your pdoc (by the way, this happens more often than most people realize) and kicked to the curb by your therapist. what's next?
you can throw a pity party and invite all of your friends. you might make a suicidal gesture in a cry for help. OR you might take charge of your life, find new doctors who are willing to work with you, and get on with the rest of your life.
if it ain't broke don't fix it. if it ain't working throw it away. i believe a change in medical support is in order.
That light at the end of he tunnel? It's an on-coming train.
Some day you'll learn that a good bm is better than sex.
Insanity is defined as doing the same actions over and over again and expecting a different outcome.