I am looking for a site where most people can empathize with how I feel. I could really use a therapist but I need to wait until I can afford it; just started new job and had drained my savings prior to that. So instead of therapy, I decided on a support group thing. None in my area. So here I am, visiting your site after a google search.
I can't offer support to anyone at this point in time - but I know this will pass and maybe I be of help then.
Currently I feel quite empty and emotionless with flashes of aggitation and/or anxiety and/or crying spells. I hate it. My anxiety is to the point that I'm having heart palpitations. My depression makes me lethargic.
I'm 3 months away from being 30 (female).
I have been mostly unhappy and anxious since birth, I think.
I currently take lamictal for bipolar d/o.
I have a long history of abuse - all the varieties from a variety of people.
I have major anger managment problems and have been violent and verbally abusive toward my husband.
I have no close friends; only superficial relationships (except for my husband).
My mother is severely mentally ill.
I think I am crazy.
So if anyone out there can just listen for a while, maybe give words of wisdom, then maybe I can climb out of this black hole.
Thanks for reading.