Hi, I am so glad I found this board after looking for something to post on about this disorder I have just been told I have.
At the age of about 24 and I am now 25 I started haveing bad panic attacks later the deppression set in. I have been on so many meds and have come off of so many because of different issues and not to mention I wanted to see if I was "normal" again what ever normal is.
After being treated for deppression/panic/anexity I finally went to see a Psychatrist on the 15th
after a long talk and lots of questions he is almost sure I have what they call "Mixed Bipolar"
and has started me on Lamictal. I constantly think about being on these meds and this triggers anexity and a small amount of panic. I do have a fear of meds badly and he lets me take them at night so I feel safe (when my husband is home). I have started on 25mg and will be on that for two weeks, then he bumps me to 50mg for two weeks and then 100 for eight days and then to 200.. This seems like so much medication the mg's are so high. Is this safe? btw I am now 45 sad its taken them this long to find out I have this disorder. I dont do anything really to bad I just am manic at times up after four hours sleep wide awake and deppressed to the point of tears so I have no engery either to do much.
I need to know how I am going to feel after these meds work I have so much more anexity now, he does let me take Xanax when I feel like Im to the point i cant take it anymore. I am carefull with it as I mentioned im terrified of pills and I only take a half, but I dont want to be on xanax the rest of my life. Will Lamictal make me feel almost normal again one day? Thats if it works for me.
My daughter is grown now and I feel like I should really be enjoying some life with husband and I dont. well I am done rambling thanks for reading