Charity Faith said...
Hello, I came to this board at first because I live with daily pain due to whiplash. I found this section. I am also a survivor of chid abuse(sexual) from my own father. I am now 44 and have worked hard in my life in beginning to NOT INTERNALIZE what happened to me. Once I stated to seperate myself FROM the abuse, I began to see my worth.
Anyone who would like to discuss this, please feel free to talk.
I aquired anxiety and emotional problems from this..that resonate to this day.
I have problems with intimacy: wanting to be too close or too distant..with a 'pulling and pushing' back and forth all my life.
I too am a child abuse survivor (sexual from my own father), from the ages 3 to 11. I am 24 and to this day it haunts me. I believe my current health problems is the way the abuse has manifested in me. I have been married for 3 years now, and before we add on to our family, I feel the need to heal my wounded soul. I have just realized begun to realize that I was a child and he the adult and he knew better, it wasn't my job to say no, to stop him. I still feel so ashamed and dirty, even though I know its not my fault. I fianaly spoke up about
the age of 11, and my closest friends and family know. Just recently, my brother and I, who have the same father, have descussed the abuse. I feel validated now, he believes me, but he still has a relationship with him, I haven't spoken to him since I came out. My brother and other family member think it would be a good idea to confront him in person, I just want him to admit to me that he took away my inicense and childhood, and I want to know if he is even sorry. What do you think? I want so much to heal my broken heart.
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, spinal stenosis, depression, migrains, ulcerative colitis
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