~~~ Olivia ~~~Moderator, Bipolar"Don't let your yesterday, ruin your today" "The moon if always full, think about it."Dx: Bipolar I (mixed-episodes), PTSD, Anxiety/Panic Disorder Current Meds: Lithium 900mg, Geodon 60mg 2x/day, Ativan 1mgSupport HealingWell: http://www.healingwell.com/donate
Like you, I've been asymptomatic for a long time . . . but sometimes it is still a challenge for me to figure out if a "mood" is normal baseline or a "mood swing." No matter how stable and asymptomatic . . . the diagnosis is always there. Does that make sense?
As far as exercise, it really has become a must for me. But like everything else in my life, I strife for balance between the two extremes. I limit my exercise to a reasonable amount (e.g. 4-5 times a week) and don't go overboard. I walk a lot and listen to music. I gained a lot of weight at the onset of my illness and finally lost it a couple of years ago. The walking helps my mental health as well as helps in keeping the weight off.
I don't know how old your children are, but I think it's pretty normal for children of teachers to feel that their parents "give more" to their students than them. As far as feeling "moody" with your children . . . I think non-bi-polar parents probably have similar feelings. You seem to be able to be reflective about your actions . . . that sounds like decent parenting to me.
Good luck with everything. Sounds like you're doing well. I just found this website this week . . . I'm thinking it will sometimes be nice to communicate with people such as yourself . . . people who have dealt with the diagnosis long-term and are stable. Even though I am a "stable bi-polar" and have been in remission for a long time . . . I am still bi-polar. It really doesn't go away.
Are you still checking the postings periodically? Was wondering how you are doing. Hope things are going well for you. Let us know, if you want.
I am doing well. Was feeling very tired of being "chronically ill" a few weeks ago, but am dealing better now. Onset was at age 17 and currently 42. That's a long time to be coping. Guess it's normal to get tired -it's all a part of the process, I think.
Hi Jade 11,
Congratulations on successfully completing your challenging degree program! A lot of work.
I don't mean to sound like the cheerleader for Lithium, but I've been on it for over 20 years and would be very frightened it I went off of it. It really has been a part of what has saved my life and given me a good quality of life. I have 3 college degrees (my last one completed last fall) and I think I am just as sharp as I was over 20 years ago. I'm not sure what it is like for other folks, so I don't disagree with your idea that it might effect memory - it just hasn't for me.
If I periodically forget something, I contribute it to the same behavior as a nonbipolar person would do . . . does that make sense? Even though I've been dealing with the dx. for so many years, there are still times that I have to reflect on a behavior or feeling and contemplate whether it is "bipolar involved" or "something a nonbipolar person who do/say/think." I think that is part of coping with a chronic illness. Even though I have well for a long time, there is no guarantee that I will stay that way. Nor is there a guarantee that I will not encounter side effects from taking my medication. I am appreciative of every good day that I have and glad that I am well.
What does your doctor say about the memory issues?
If you sign on again, I hope all is well and I hope the best for you.
I am signing off. I joined the forum looking for dialogue around coping with chronic illness . . . and support around the loss that still exists after being "well" over time. I didn't really find that. As I sign off, I am reminded of how lucky I am to have my life and do so well . . . and much of that is due to taking my medication as prescribed. I hope you do what is right for you and wish you the best.